the big great nothingness...

[xunclexricox]

hey, today i am happy to say i accomplished a whole lot...a big great nothing in the pages of human history and im so pissed off about it...i am completely tired of the way i schedual myself and the things i do do myself. letely i feel so sick psysically becasue of the sleep that i allow myself, alot of the time not even going to sleep at all which is killing my body and i can feel it dragging down on me every single time i do it. also i feel exhausted mentally, one because of my fucked up sleep pattern and two because all this doing nothing is becoming one great boaring cycle.yesterday i learned how to use this video editing program i found on the computer which is pretty cool because now i can edit and video clips i want and make shit look cool, skiing and snowboaring wise whenever we get footage in order to do it and me,steve and john were actually thinking of possibly making music vidoes...maybe some crazy cool stanley krupnick vidoes also...the only shitty part is that i do not own a camera in order to attain any footage which sucks balls...i was actually thinking of selling my tv i got for christmas which has no use to me and picking up a good high quality video camera to film some cool stuff..also ive been feeling like crap lately becasue i feel like me and jess are not getting along, she always seems to be mad at me for some reason or i feel like she is pissed off at me becasue she thinks i did something dumb or that i am dumb...whichever the case may be i feel like crap all the time and im constantly thinking about it the entire day..it will proboboly turn out to be that i just worry to much but every time she gets mad at me or gives me this look for something i said or did it feels like im dying inside...besides that nothing else has happend and i fear that this will be the outcome of many days to come. right now i need to run to the store for kitty litter and cat food for my cats along with ciggerettes and im friggin exhausted and ive come to the conclusion that this whole sleeping problem will just wind up being some crappy life long problem...any way until next time

your pal,
XuncleXricoX P.S my spelling sucks but im too lazy to change anything