How am I suppose to feel about the things I've done?
D00d. Things aren't going good at all lately. Today though was very fun with zimmy-zim-zim at the movies/michaels/circuit city/panera bread/dairy queen/linens-n-things. First at the movies we saw this really hott d00d, didn't know his name, he had black hair which I love! He was a tom delonge look-a-like. We were going to see Resident Evil 2 but, long story so I won't explain. We went to michaels second, and sang and stuff just snooped around. Then at linens-n-things which was hilarious. Zim and I were pretending we were British and that she was my mom, I think people belived it too. She pushed me around in a cart and pretended to be all old and crap and used "big words" on me. We stole a little ducky thingie from some toothbrush holder thing lol cause it was already broken and it was cute! The best part--> We went to look at candles and like alot of the food-smelly type ones smelt good enough to eat, and foolish Zim took a big chunk out of the pineapple one. LMAO! She didn't swallow it, but she said it was okay, but smells better lol. We had so many good laughs today d00d. The rest of the stuff we didn't wasn't as great so I won't go into detail. Man, I thought he was going to appreciate my poem...I was so wrong. I screwed everything up. That saying is true, you never know how good you have it until its gone. It hurts so bad. I really messed up. And now I can't take it anymore, I'm not going to take my life neccasarily, but kill myself slowly with drugs and alcohol. I don't like myself. I hate me so I'm going to let myself suffer slowly. Thats all I have to say for now. It sucks so yeah. Its all over. later days,
-rayven =(
How am I supposed to feel
About the things I've done?
I don't know if I should stay
Or turn around and run.
I know that I hurt you
Things will never be the same.
The only love I ever knew
I threw it all away.