the balance.
School's about to start and i think my long vacation break is about to come to an abrupt end. The image that comes to mind is that of walking on the travellator and upon reaching the end, getting flung forward because of the sudden inertia, or the loss of it...? beats me, i'm not a physics student.
Saw an email regarding a joint minor programme with Uni of Toronto for environmental biology, an area which i'm interested in too... Requirements would have me take two year-3 modules in this academic year to qualify for the interview and first round selections. Actually, everything works out quite well, and despite the additional module that i would have to take this sem for this minor programme, I am still able to get a 4-week timetable, though a very packed one. None of my days would end earlier than 6pm, but yet everything is still smooth, no timetable clashes and no exam clashes. Plus the arrangements and all, i now have 4 scenarios to choose from, depending on my final choices as to my GEM and whether i take the additional module. Really undecided whether to actually try it out, knowing that yr2 life sci is notoriously tough. Yet, looking at the modules, i believe i can handle it. Plus the fact that only 10 students every year get selected to go for this joint minor programme... Not confident of being good enough. Perhaps if i can express my passion across to the panel of interviewers.. But it's too early to think about that now isn't it.. Heh.
Meishi asked me to really think about it, when i voiced it out during mentoring today. Harvestfield1511 is going to start kickoff soon and i've been roped in as the publicity head. Roped in makes it sound like i was an unwilling party, though it's not the case. hahaha well, i don't find publicity very much though meishi seems to think otherwise, which makes me wonder if i'm just thinking too simple of my role. Of course besides just being publicity head, i'm also a befriender thingy for bijun's event (not having read the official letter from her proper yet:P), 2nd OIC for grand finale, considering the prayer leader responsibility.
Bah. It doesn't sound like a lot, yet it also sounds overwhelming. Plus the fact that i'm kinda lost as to what i'm really supposed to do now. Haish, i'm scared that i screw smth up, be it the Harvestfield1511 or my schoolwork. I really want to work hard this sem and try to pull up my CAP and get into this joint minor programme.. Really really do. I'm not sure if i can handle it all... Not sure if i'm willing to commit to so much, or if i'm able to. Yet on the other hand, i don't want to not commit out of what my be pure selfishness on my part...
Praypraypray, about all the choices that i have to make right now.
Have been thinking about canada quite a bit because of diane's migration there. Included unis in canada in my choices for SEP. And then this minor programme in toronto comes about, it all just seems like a pieces in a puzzle. Plus dropping in the library today, a new booth caught my eye, and it was a booth devoted to Canada - the maps, the culture, the books, the travel guides, everything. I was like wow.
I remember ever having been told that when God speaks to us, there definitely would be more than one who have heard the same message, that it would not be a one-person thing because God provides confirmation. So far, only I have the notion that trying out for this is part of God's plan for me.
Perhaps this is all one big coincidence, but i really believe in the quote that says that "coincidences are God's ways of remaining anonymous" :)