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you ask someone a sensitive or touchy question, and the person replies:
"well, if i told you i didn't do it, i'd be lying to you" there's just something about answering the question in this manner that i dunno, makes the incident less serious or real than if he had answered "ya, i did it."
so i found out something about you. and i'm not sure how exactly i feel about it. i didn't really see it coming, though i suspected it to be. haiyarh, actually i keep turning it over and over in my head. i think i'd rather not have known. no that's not true, i would like to have known but now that i actually know, i think that i don't wanna know. arhh! annoying, i can't get it out of my head. idioitic silly billy.
i'm reading a book now called "since i don't have you" and its about a mother who loses a child. the author's good. she evokes the emotions in me that make me come the closest i could possibly come to understanding how a mother would feel about losing a child, without having gone through it myself. i can't ever imagine losing someone i love so much, especially a child. i've always thought of motherhood. not in that morning sickness, weight gain, nasuea way, but in that joy and pride when i watch my little boy or little girl grow up into a beautiful thing. whee:)
haha ok la, stop daydreaming.