all it takes is faith: xue

xue_ying

all it takes is faith

Dec 06, 2008 21:57

Sunday School Camp 2008, 4th-6th dec

Actually this camp made me learn alot. Maybe it was because of the leadership role that i had to take upon this camp because of the lack of authorative figures, despite not being part of the planning committee. Must say that there were many times i felt kinda frustrated and tired by the way the camp was moving but yet looking back, i guess it was an experience it itself...

We prayed really hard for it not to rain on the second day of the camp where we were supposed to head off to p.ubin early in the day and spend the night there. The weather hadn't been favourable for the days before, raining very heavily on our recee trip there a day before the actual camp and on the first day. The rain created a lot of trouble for us because it just made things even messier than they were. Check in was a mess as the bus blocked our way when we were desperately trying to get rachel's IC down at somerset. There was a horrible jam where pastor rebecca just kept expressing her dismay.. hahaha quite funny actually. So anyway check in was done, lots of luggage moving. Really admire how much pastor rebecca is willing to do for us, she doesn't complain or grumble and just takes it and does it to her best. Same with meishi, love my mentor. Love p. rebecca, my aunt:) Anyway it got settled eventually and the rest of the day passed quickly, with everyone, i believe, praying fervently for there not to be rain the next day.

By God's grace, there was indeed none. And everytime i looked up towards the sky or felt the cool breeze of the afternoon, i just said a silent prayer and thank you to God. It was really so amazing because the weather forecast said it would, all the boat uncles said it would, the weather the day before said it would, but it didn't. We did eventually leave the island at about 10+ at night because of the heavy rain on mainland and we could not afford to get caught in a downpour in the middle of the night. Kinda makes me wonder. My dad commented too, you guys got everyone at the prayer meeting praying for no rain, yet eventually you guys still left the campsite... I doubt that it ever rained. Even as the last boat was leaving the area, the boat uncles also said that the rain wouldn't come. Well, i guess we would never confirm if it did rain that night, but what difference does it make now.

The comfort of the church was much appreciated by everyone though:) The showering cubicles, the aircon and most importantly to me, the lights. Didn't really like the darkness of the campsite because i felt that i couldn't see things well enough to ensure that everyone was ok.

So many more thoughts i don't really know how to express. I guess i really learnt quite a bit from this camp, and i got to know people better. I love the bond that comes from camps such as these, especially because it was made tougher by the circumstances. I learnt alot about myself, about my character, my way of doing thing.
I learnt about my sensitivities and how it can get too extreme and that sometimes i should just learn to take a step back and relax.
I learnt that i'm v neurotic about being organized and tidy and constantly cleaning up after my group.
I learnt that i'm v critical of others and don't evaluate them lightly. I
learnt how emotional i can get when i see the lack of love and willingness to help between people, coming close to tears a few times but holding it back in the end.
I learnt that not everyone needs recognition, but everyone needs to feel appreciated, even me.
I learnt that leading is not about taking control of everything but spreading out the workload.
I learnt that i can stand up in front of the crowds to direct them when people need a leader.
I learnt that sometimes all it takes is a little faith. I learnt that initiativeness is a trait i value a lot.
I learnt that sometimes things my hurt and you get beaten back but you should all take it in your stride.
I learnt that to be a good leader, one must learn to evaluate and adapt according to the needs of your people and the situation around you.
I learnt that you should never assume that you know what someone thinks of you.
I learnt that sometimes as long as you have friends to support you, and God to guide you, it'd all be fine in the end:)

I guess this camp did succeed eventually. Perhaps i didn't find out totally as to who i am, but there was many things i learnt about myself.
Babysteps.

There are so many little angels whom i would like to thank you to for all they had done during this camp, for their eagerness to help; for their love to spread; for their concern for a brother or sister in need.
Thank you yinhong who constantly asked me if i needed help and for doing all that, and so much more.
Thank you rachel for being the older sister i never had and whom i love dearly.
Thank you meishi for being the support and strength i needed in the first day and for believing in me.
Thank you all the people who took time out after the prayer meeting to come and shuttle us back to church, was really touched.
Thank you shengsheng shengmei zhongwei yuhung kent andy for always being there to help with the heavy stuff.
Thank you xinying for being my angel and looking out for me in little ways though it never occurred to me until with hindsight.
Thank you Joy for being the group who might not have had lots of senior youths to help but for making it through.
Thank you for the people whom i got to know better, who were willing to talk to to me and open up to me, for letting me know that i made a difference in your life.

Love you guys.

And some of my favourite snapshots from the camp...