Moving On...
So me and Diana broke up... I took it pretty hard, but I guess seeing her move on soo damn quickly helped me realize that she really didn't love me... at least no where near as much as she said she did... kinda depressing. Spend four months toghether and break up... she starts another relationship, which she is so called "not ready for" with some other guy... And on top of it all, I still want her back... I really don't understand why too... She's blatantly over me, but I still hope for her to come back?!?! Life makes no sense. Not like shes ever going to realize that Danny will never love her the way I did, really bites knowing that they do the exact same shit that we did together, except it's all new and fun with him, and it was boring and routine with me. I love it when life smacks you in the face, especially with a "lets still be best friends", how is it possible to be friends when you still love her, and know that the bullshit she says about if we were meant to be than we will get back together in the future... makes no sense. I basically take it as, I'm bored with you, and now I want to go screw with somebody else, and maybe I'll get tired of him, and want you back, and that sucks. Part of me just wants to sit around and wait for her to "probably" come back, but I also want to just forget about her and the fact that shes off having an awesome time with her new boyfriend, and I'm still trying to get over the fact that she left in the first place. I really did love her, but I guess she never REALLY loved me, and it's pretty hard to swallow, but I'll move on, just like she did. Why she would dump me for another fling just stumps the hell out of me... And if I'm lucky, when he leaves in 2 months, I'll have someone that truly loves me, and I won't even be tempted to come back to you, until then, maybe we can see each other or hang out, if you ever stop with your bullshit excuse of being afraid to see me... or something like that