LOOOOOONG POST....
fuck man...
alright, so tonight was interesting...to say the least. albertsons was having a party for the closing of the store...and my friend/ex coworker invited me to go with her. SO, since i was fired...i decided i would LOVE to go haha. i talked shawn into inviting michelle, which they also invited jared...that was cool with me since i haven't really hung out with either of them besides michelle since we got fired. so we get to the party which is at por favor...and they have some killer margaritas there, so shawn, jared, and myself all order a jumbo margarita...which michelle drank some from all of ours since she's only 20. jared decides he wants some shots, and says they're on him...again, thats cool with me since i wasn't paying. we take out shots, have some food, finish our margaritas...and then order some more margaritas and some more shots. we then finish our food and are just kinda hanging out with everyone...jared is already kind of drunk, and decides to order ANOTHER round of shots. needless to say, he ended up being completely wasted. he's making an ass of himself...has shawn take him to the bathroom to puke about 3 times. then...we get the check for the entire table. $194.94. $62.50 of that was JUST THE SHOTS. jareds already fucking drunk and he can't really count his money or pay since he doesn't have a job. so, michelle just takes whatever money everyone left and put it all on her card. i only had a card and i told her i could put some on my card, but she insists on just putting it on hers and that i'd get her back whenever we hang out with movies and shit. she then leaves cause she got a phone call, and i hang out with all my old coworkers and shit. eventually i go check on jared, and notice michelle hasn't come back...so i go to find her. she seemed kind of mad or something and she kinda blew me off, so i decided not to bother her. then i go back into the restaurant, and she starts crying. everyone is asking me whats wrong, since i know her the best...but i honestly had no clue. we decide to leave since shes crying, and jared is fucking wasted. of course, I had to fucking walk him to my car...which was a fucking challenge cause he's so damn drunk and shit. we eventually get him in the car and the original plan was to take michelle home first since she was upset...but i decided to take jared home first since i wanted to get him home and in bed before he does any more stupid shit. we're on the freeway, michelle is crying...next thing you know jared says "andrew...i need to puke. pull over". so i do...but he doesn't even open the door and pukes ALL OVER the passanger side. on the window, on the dash, on the roof, on himself...it was fucking nasty. i take him home, and again, I had to fucking walk him to his apartment. it took me about...45 minutes just to walk him like 100 feet. i finally get back to the car, and michelle is STILL crying. apparently...she's head over heels over some stupid douchebag. i guess they've been texting eachother all night and he was just being a complete asshole to her. the entire time, i keep telling her she doesn't need a douchebag like him, and to just give me her phone. she says "i can't...i just want someone to love me. i want someone to be good to me and make me happy...i want to be loved." of course in my head i'm just like "FUCK YOU!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!! I'M FUCKING PERFECT FOR YOU!!!" but of course what comes out is "i know...but you don't need anyone like that in your life. he's a fucking douchebag and you deserve WAY better than that." along with a bunch of other stuff. i eventually just hold her while she's in my back seat and i'm kneeling on the ground outside the door and tell her "michelle...you know i love you. and you know that i want you to be happy...and being with him ISN'T going to make you happy." and we talk some more and she just keeps crying cause that asshole keeps texting her. she just keeps saying "just take me home! i want to go home! get out of my way!" and she like...tried to kick me out of her way. my response: "you know what, you can fucking kick me all you want, you can punch me in the face...but i'm not taking you home until you calm down and i want to see that pretty smile of yours on your face and no more tears in your eyes." eventually i just got frusterated and slammed the door and went to go call my dad since he had left me a message like 20 minutes before. i come back and i just talk to shawn for a while while she sits in the car...then i go to go take a piss and she comes walking out and i was afraid she was gonna try to walk home or something so i stop her. turns out she just had to pee too, so i got her some napkins i had in my car and walked her across the street to pee in the bushes haha. we get back to the car again, and i hug her and hold her close and whisper to her "michelle...i fucking love you. i just wish you would see that for once" her response was "i know...i love you too andrew".ummmm...WHAT THE FUCK!? anyways...we finally take her home, and shawn and i go buy some beer and try to find somewhere to hang out and drink...theres no where, so we call michelle to see if she wanted to come out and have a beer with us...it took a bit of convincing, but she eventually came out. we just kind of sit and talk for a while in my car...she keeps complaining about having to pay for all the shit at por favor, so we went to the bank and i gave her some money...then she said she was hungry so we got her some food and headed back to her parking lot. we sit and talk, listen to music and stuff. then she said she was tired and felt like she had to puke, so i walk her to her house and i go in to talk a little more. she was saying how she thinks she showed us her tits and that she kissed someone...but she didn't do anything and i reassured her that nothing happened. but she kept insisting that she did something wrong and that she kissed me and i told her she didn't and to just give me a hug and go to sleep but she wouldn't even give me a hug cause she was upset thinking she did something stupid...so we sit on her couch and i again reassure her that nothing happened. i told her the last time i saw her tits was when we went to go see metal skool MONTHS ago. then she asked when the last time she kissed me was and i was just like "...its been too long since that happened. like...6 months, maybe more" and at this point we're sitting close to eachother, and i have my hand under her chin so i could look at her and make sure she wasn't crying anymore...and we were about to kiss...but her stupid ass moms boyfriend comes out and she quickly moved away. *sigh*...that chance will never come up again haha. then, i told her to give me a hug...i kiss her on top of the head, told her i loved her more than anything and to call me or text me if she needed anything...and again "...i love you too andrew...okay" and i hug her and leave. man...i dunno anymore. i keep telling myself i'm over that girl...but then something like this happens. i would want more than ANYTHING to be able to be with her...kiss her...hold her...just BE with her...but oh well. 'til next time...
Evily Yours,
Andrew
alright, so tonight was interesting...to say the least. albertsons was having a party for the closing of the store...and my friend/ex coworker invited me to go with her. SO, since i was fired...i decided i would LOVE to go haha. i talked shawn into inviting michelle, which they also invited jared...that was cool with me since i haven't really hung out with either of them besides michelle since we got fired. so we get to the party which is at por favor...and they have some killer margaritas there, so shawn, jared, and myself all order a jumbo margarita...which michelle drank some from all of ours since she's only 20. jared decides he wants some shots, and says they're on him...again, thats cool with me since i wasn't paying. we take out shots, have some food, finish our margaritas...and then order some more margaritas and some more shots. we then finish our food and are just kinda hanging out with everyone...jared is already kind of drunk, and decides to order ANOTHER round of shots. needless to say, he ended up being completely wasted. he's making an ass of himself...has shawn take him to the bathroom to puke about 3 times. then...we get the check for the entire table. $194.94. $62.50 of that was JUST THE SHOTS. jareds already fucking drunk and he can't really count his money or pay since he doesn't have a job. so, michelle just takes whatever money everyone left and put it all on her card. i only had a card and i told her i could put some on my card, but she insists on just putting it on hers and that i'd get her back whenever we hang out with movies and shit. she then leaves cause she got a phone call, and i hang out with all my old coworkers and shit. eventually i go check on jared, and notice michelle hasn't come back...so i go to find her. she seemed kind of mad or something and she kinda blew me off, so i decided not to bother her. then i go back into the restaurant, and she starts crying. everyone is asking me whats wrong, since i know her the best...but i honestly had no clue. we decide to leave since shes crying, and jared is fucking wasted. of course, I had to fucking walk him to my car...which was a fucking challenge cause he's so damn drunk and shit. we eventually get him in the car and the original plan was to take michelle home first since she was upset...but i decided to take jared home first since i wanted to get him home and in bed before he does any more stupid shit. we're on the freeway, michelle is crying...next thing you know jared says "andrew...i need to puke. pull over". so i do...but he doesn't even open the door and pukes ALL OVER the passanger side. on the window, on the dash, on the roof, on himself...it was fucking nasty. i take him home, and again, I had to fucking walk him to his apartment. it took me about...45 minutes just to walk him like 100 feet. i finally get back to the car, and michelle is STILL crying. apparently...she's head over heels over some stupid douchebag. i guess they've been texting eachother all night and he was just being a complete asshole to her. the entire time, i keep telling her she doesn't need a douchebag like him, and to just give me her phone. she says "i can't...i just want someone to love me. i want someone to be good to me and make me happy...i want to be loved." of course in my head i'm just like "FUCK YOU!! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!! I'M FUCKING PERFECT FOR YOU!!!" but of course what comes out is "i know...but you don't need anyone like that in your life. he's a fucking douchebag and you deserve WAY better than that." along with a bunch of other stuff. i eventually just hold her while she's in my back seat and i'm kneeling on the ground outside the door and tell her "michelle...you know i love you. and you know that i want you to be happy...and being with him ISN'T going to make you happy." and we talk some more and she just keeps crying cause that asshole keeps texting her. she just keeps saying "just take me home! i want to go home! get out of my way!" and she like...tried to kick me out of her way. my response: "you know what, you can fucking kick me all you want, you can punch me in the face...but i'm not taking you home until you calm down and i want to see that pretty smile of yours on your face and no more tears in your eyes." eventually i just got frusterated and slammed the door and went to go call my dad since he had left me a message like 20 minutes before. i come back and i just talk to shawn for a while while she sits in the car...then i go to go take a piss and she comes walking out and i was afraid she was gonna try to walk home or something so i stop her. turns out she just had to pee too, so i got her some napkins i had in my car and walked her across the street to pee in the bushes haha. we get back to the car again, and i hug her and hold her close and whisper to her "michelle...i fucking love you. i just wish you would see that for once" her response was "i know...i love you too andrew".ummmm...WHAT THE FUCK!? anyways...we finally take her home, and shawn and i go buy some beer and try to find somewhere to hang out and drink...theres no where, so we call michelle to see if she wanted to come out and have a beer with us...it took a bit of convincing, but she eventually came out. we just kind of sit and talk for a while in my car...she keeps complaining about having to pay for all the shit at por favor, so we went to the bank and i gave her some money...then she said she was hungry so we got her some food and headed back to her parking lot. we sit and talk, listen to music and stuff. then she said she was tired and felt like she had to puke, so i walk her to her house and i go in to talk a little more. she was saying how she thinks she showed us her tits and that she kissed someone...but she didn't do anything and i reassured her that nothing happened. but she kept insisting that she did something wrong and that she kissed me and i told her she didn't and to just give me a hug and go to sleep but she wouldn't even give me a hug cause she was upset thinking she did something stupid...so we sit on her couch and i again reassure her that nothing happened. i told her the last time i saw her tits was when we went to go see metal skool MONTHS ago. then she asked when the last time she kissed me was and i was just like "...its been too long since that happened. like...6 months, maybe more" and at this point we're sitting close to eachother, and i have my hand under her chin so i could look at her and make sure she wasn't crying anymore...and we were about to kiss...but her stupid ass moms boyfriend comes out and she quickly moved away. *sigh*...that chance will never come up again haha. then, i told her to give me a hug...i kiss her on top of the head, told her i loved her more than anything and to call me or text me if she needed anything...and again "...i love you too andrew...okay" and i hug her and leave. man...i dunno anymore. i keep telling myself i'm over that girl...but then something like this happens. i would want more than ANYTHING to be able to be with her...kiss her...hold her...just BE with her...but oh well. 'til next time...
Evily Yours,
Andrew