Don't even tell me just do it!

[xtwistedinside8]

This week has been a giant blur. You know one of those weeks when all you do is think when your trying to concentrate on other things that should be important like working or reading for school (by the way yes I'm a loser and read all the books that were assigned for school...even the advanced class ones!) Mostly I have been thinking about people and what they mean to me and how important some of them are and how it's so weird that old friends can just pop out of no where and want to be your friend again...why does that happen? I also decided that I'm over my crush...yupp it's done. I mean I'll still feel jealous when he gets a new girlfriend and looks in her eyes a way he'll never look in mine and when he ends up going out with Jess (I really think that might happen one day!) and I know I'll defiantly say yes if he ever did want a relationship but for now I'm going to try and not think about it, I'm going to isolate my feeling for him and push them away cause unfortunately...and I'm not to ashamed to admit it...I'm afraid to confront him with my feelings so they have to end...now. Well tonight I felt special, Erica. Katie. and Dave came to visit me at work...I have friends! :p They took me away for a coupe of minutes so that was like 5 minutes I got paid for and was talking to them...hahahaha. I also watched kids throw shopping carts at each other, why would someone do that? Does that really entertain you and make you happy? I don't know. maybe I'll try it one day if I'm really that desperate for entertainment...or maybe if I ever get high. Sunday and Monday should be fun, I'm excited about it. I'm also looking forward to wed. cause I'm hanging out with Steven. I was also talking to my mom about a tattoo on my foot and she is thinking about bring me to the village to get it done cause I can't get it done here cause people are messed up...I mean if my mom says I'm giving my daughter permission to get this done and helps me pick out the tattoo you would think they would just do it, right?
I have nothing else to say.

~you know you love me~