Non, je ne regrette rien !
I know that the stars are holding you..
Lately I've been acting very weird. Things have also gotten very weird lately. I have weird desires and I discovered I have weird habits and I am acting totally different than I usually do. Like, right now for example, the way I'm typing. I'm moving my hands in such a weird way. It looks like I'm playing the piano, not typing something on the blog.
Last night I stood up late and searched to old bands & songs, I've been listening last year. I found everything I wanted.. and more. It feels so damn good listening to them again. With every song pieces of memories come back to me. I remember all the stupid things I did while listening to those songs. It's so good.
I need to make some order in my life. Everything is pretty messed up right now. School, friends, crushes & all. It's a good thing that I managed to get along well with everyone in the class(well.. not quite everyone. there are still some small exceptions. i will solve them later on, i hope.) but it's just that I'm afraid they know a different me. Like, they know a crazy, loud, clumsy girl. And I'm not like that all the time. For example, when I'm all alone I'm quiet and scared and shy. So why? Why do I act like that when I'm at school? Monday I want to try to keep quiet. I want to try, not to talk so loud and not to laugh out of nothing and not to act like a crazy person. I don't know if I'll make it. But at least I'll know I tried. I want to change. I have these big dreams.
There's a bad part about me being loud and crazy. Whenever we are in class and there is someone talking they immediately think I'm the one talking. Even tough I'm not.
Today I'll do it. Today I'm finally changing my hairstyle. I decided on a sweet hairstyle I saw a year ago. I don't care if it's not used anymore. I like it. Last year my hair wasn't long enough for that type of hairstyle and besides last year i was scared of cutting my bangs short. Now there's nothing to stop me. I can't wait.
"You will see someday
That all along the way
I was yours to hold."
Lately I've been acting very weird. Things have also gotten very weird lately. I have weird desires and I discovered I have weird habits and I am acting totally different than I usually do. Like, right now for example, the way I'm typing. I'm moving my hands in such a weird way. It looks like I'm playing the piano, not typing something on the blog.
Last night I stood up late and searched to old bands & songs, I've been listening last year. I found everything I wanted.. and more. It feels so damn good listening to them again. With every song pieces of memories come back to me. I remember all the stupid things I did while listening to those songs. It's so good.
I need to make some order in my life. Everything is pretty messed up right now. School, friends, crushes & all. It's a good thing that I managed to get along well with everyone in the class(well.. not quite everyone. there are still some small exceptions. i will solve them later on, i hope.) but it's just that I'm afraid they know a different me. Like, they know a crazy, loud, clumsy girl. And I'm not like that all the time. For example, when I'm all alone I'm quiet and scared and shy. So why? Why do I act like that when I'm at school? Monday I want to try to keep quiet. I want to try, not to talk so loud and not to laugh out of nothing and not to act like a crazy person. I don't know if I'll make it. But at least I'll know I tried. I want to change. I have these big dreams.
There's a bad part about me being loud and crazy. Whenever we are in class and there is someone talking they immediately think I'm the one talking. Even tough I'm not.
Today I'll do it. Today I'm finally changing my hairstyle. I decided on a sweet hairstyle I saw a year ago. I don't care if it's not used anymore. I like it. Last year my hair wasn't long enough for that type of hairstyle and besides last year i was scared of cutting my bangs short. Now there's nothing to stop me. I can't wait.
"You will see someday
That all along the way
I was yours to hold."