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to sum it up. after work i pretty much hit the biggest brick wall i have in a while. the moment i walked into the door my mood depressed to the point where i just almost slumpped down in a puddle of tears. I laid down in bed and started to nap, hoping that when i awoke i wouldnt be so miserable. that turned out to be the worse possible solution. I laid here tossing and turning getting angrier by the minute. at who was i getting angry at? everyone, everything. It didnt matter. greg and i started talking. i guess there was a "misunderstanding" and i tho0ught he lied which wouldnt suprise me. then that blew up into this big thing. finaly he called me and i gave him the cold shoulder. the "i dunt care" "whatever" "yup" click. great huh. then he starts texting me explaining that hes scared and worried and blah blah blah. Basicly i just asked him if hes so worried this isnt gunna work then why are we still trying? eventually i feel asleep. Barely any food in my body and i wake up this morning just trying to stay focused on things that arent going to ruin my day.
the agenda for today- get up and shower first im disgusting from sweating and crying and screaming. get ready and call up ann to see what the deal is. problly go over to see my little boy and hang out with him and talk to sherri about some stuff. then problly going over to melissa's to speak with her about the move.
wish me luck. im still second guessing this life. maybe an update tomorrow to see how things go.
xoxoxox
peace & love
You know who
the agenda for today- get up and shower first im disgusting from sweating and crying and screaming. get ready and call up ann to see what the deal is. problly go over to see my little boy and hang out with him and talk to sherri about some stuff. then problly going over to melissa's to speak with her about the move.
wish me luck. im still second guessing this life. maybe an update tomorrow to see how things go.
xoxoxox
peace & love
You know who