Thanksgiving
today many people gathered around the dinning room tables, said grace and feasted on food. but then again many people did not. this morning i woke up just thinking about all the people who dont have families to enjoy the day with. althought i just about wanted to stab my aunt at dinner tonight for being such a bitch, i was truly thankful i actually had somewhere to be.
among our dinner we all went around and said what we were thankful for. heres my list, (i kno im thankful for a lot just a lot of the time i tend not to show it, note to self: be grateful more often =])
1. My life. as some may not kno, i was suicidal for a while and very anorexic for a long time. although i still miss my ways of being anorexic, i do not miss the way i felt when i was suicidal. had i killed myself i would not have some of the most amazing things in my life. therefore i am thankful i was barn and thankful that i never ended my life.
2. My Grandma. She was diagnosed with Ovarain Cancer about 2 years ago. her strong heart held through even when she wanted to give up. she would always tell everyone she was really done living but all her loved ones just kept telling her to push through it, and she did. so i am very thankful for her, all the things shes taught me and all the things she will continue to teach me. (note to self: visit grandma more often...)
3. My American Citizenship. Being an american is often taken for granted. although our country is going through some major shit right now, i have the oppurtunity to blog freely, work a great job (well great sometimes... lol!), vote, go to school and get a great education. being in america is a blessing and soemtimes people dont realize how great living in this country actaully is despite our status.
4. Material items. Things such as photoshop, cameras, my LG Voyager, my car (periwinkle!) and so much more, is another group im thankful for. with out these items i wouldnt be where i am today. without my devices i dont think i would be as accomplished.
5. My devlopment. the way i have grown into such a person will always be something i am most thankful for. without the skills i have learned, i wouldnt be house sitting for Renee right now... haha. its because of the way ive learned to present myself and project myself that has made me the successful person i am.
Lastly but certainly not least, (well this actually may be the most important...)
I am thankful for Tyler. he has turned my life upside down and shook me silly. because of this i have learned so much about myself, other people, and him. growing with him is the most valuable experience ever. he has turned me into the amazing person that is sitting here blogging about what shes thankful for. he has showed me so much in this world and for that i am truly thankful. i love him with all my heart and i always will no matter what will ever happen. of course he pisses me off about hummm eightyfive percent of the time, but what person so close and so lovely wouldnt? lol
well in other news. its freezing in this house. i was thinking this morning and i new exacly what i wanted to blog about tonight and ive completely forgotten. typical! no suprise there. today was an alright day tho. ive been spending the nights at tylers house because renees house is lyk an ice box. falling asleep with him has been so wonderful i wont lie. i love waking up next to him. i can not wait untill we get our own place. it is truly wonderful how our relationship has grown. anyways he was off to work rather early, seven thirty, and i fell back asleep untill nine or so. then i trucked up to renees to take care of the animals. johnny and bella, there dogs are adorable but johnny doesnt understand that poop belongs outside yet. it sucks having to clean up after him. it wasnt that bad this morning though thank goodness. after i got ready here i went to pick up tyler. we went home and i watched tv and read the playboy magazine. a little whiles later we came back to grand island to take care of the pups then we went to grammys where we had dinner. after we went to tys moms house were we stayed for a whole twenty minutes... i took him home and now here i sit.
tomorrow i get to babysit for Peter and Meg. their children are adorable and i hope everything goes well. im also hoping i get paid mad cash cuz as of right now, funds are pretty low. im gettin desperate!... im sure everything will be fine there. anyways...
im pretty sure i must be going because i am freezing. im gunna go lay on the couch wrap up in probly four blankets and watch some tube for a bit.
farewell to all
xoxox you know who =]
among our dinner we all went around and said what we were thankful for. heres my list, (i kno im thankful for a lot just a lot of the time i tend not to show it, note to self: be grateful more often =])
1. My life. as some may not kno, i was suicidal for a while and very anorexic for a long time. although i still miss my ways of being anorexic, i do not miss the way i felt when i was suicidal. had i killed myself i would not have some of the most amazing things in my life. therefore i am thankful i was barn and thankful that i never ended my life.
2. My Grandma. She was diagnosed with Ovarain Cancer about 2 years ago. her strong heart held through even when she wanted to give up. she would always tell everyone she was really done living but all her loved ones just kept telling her to push through it, and she did. so i am very thankful for her, all the things shes taught me and all the things she will continue to teach me. (note to self: visit grandma more often...)
3. My American Citizenship. Being an american is often taken for granted. although our country is going through some major shit right now, i have the oppurtunity to blog freely, work a great job (well great sometimes... lol!), vote, go to school and get a great education. being in america is a blessing and soemtimes people dont realize how great living in this country actaully is despite our status.
4. Material items. Things such as photoshop, cameras, my LG Voyager, my car (periwinkle!) and so much more, is another group im thankful for. with out these items i wouldnt be where i am today. without my devices i dont think i would be as accomplished.
5. My devlopment. the way i have grown into such a person will always be something i am most thankful for. without the skills i have learned, i wouldnt be house sitting for Renee right now... haha. its because of the way ive learned to present myself and project myself that has made me the successful person i am.
Lastly but certainly not least, (well this actually may be the most important...)
I am thankful for Tyler. he has turned my life upside down and shook me silly. because of this i have learned so much about myself, other people, and him. growing with him is the most valuable experience ever. he has turned me into the amazing person that is sitting here blogging about what shes thankful for. he has showed me so much in this world and for that i am truly thankful. i love him with all my heart and i always will no matter what will ever happen. of course he pisses me off about hummm eightyfive percent of the time, but what person so close and so lovely wouldnt? lol
well in other news. its freezing in this house. i was thinking this morning and i new exacly what i wanted to blog about tonight and ive completely forgotten. typical! no suprise there. today was an alright day tho. ive been spending the nights at tylers house because renees house is lyk an ice box. falling asleep with him has been so wonderful i wont lie. i love waking up next to him. i can not wait untill we get our own place. it is truly wonderful how our relationship has grown. anyways he was off to work rather early, seven thirty, and i fell back asleep untill nine or so. then i trucked up to renees to take care of the animals. johnny and bella, there dogs are adorable but johnny doesnt understand that poop belongs outside yet. it sucks having to clean up after him. it wasnt that bad this morning though thank goodness. after i got ready here i went to pick up tyler. we went home and i watched tv and read the playboy magazine. a little whiles later we came back to grand island to take care of the pups then we went to grammys where we had dinner. after we went to tys moms house were we stayed for a whole twenty minutes... i took him home and now here i sit.
tomorrow i get to babysit for Peter and Meg. their children are adorable and i hope everything goes well. im also hoping i get paid mad cash cuz as of right now, funds are pretty low. im gettin desperate!... im sure everything will be fine there. anyways...
im pretty sure i must be going because i am freezing. im gunna go lay on the couch wrap up in probly four blankets and watch some tube for a bit.
farewell to all
xoxox you know who =]