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Today amongst all the fighting with myself, the internal arguing, i learned one very important lesson. the lesson that lies within being the owner of a horse. be confident. if you are not high on the totum pole and know how to strut your stuff, be ready for a real ass kicking, and some times literaly. if you let that 1100 lbs animal push you around, chances are you will be fighting a loosing battle and end up possibly gettin hurt seriously. but this is the only place you should take this lesson. life is all about lessons to be learned and this one you need in just about everything you do considering the way society is today. every body is out there to beat everyone else. truth is if you feel high, chances are you will act high, which means you'll problly do your best. good news people like the best.
anyways along with other news ann beat the snot outta emilee today, not literaly. we ended up pulling over the car and talking everything out. though i was thoroughly distracted with the face on the shed, i heard every word that they talked about. this is where i learned the lesson. whether it will stick with me is a different story. hopefully all this bad attitude and strange ways are out of her system. i just hope for the best with her, thats all i really can do. ive tried to have her follow my ways, but then again not everyone is lyk me ( THANK GOD! )
I was really considering my relationship with trooper today. things have got to change. along with emilee my confidence level has dropped and he totaly took advantage of that. its really ridiculous how so much can change. i just want him to be happy. he needs a purpose i guess... looks like some thoroughbred research is in need here =\. i hate reading!
anyways.... my little brother is sitting here watchin wrestling which is completely driving me bonkers and my mom just called me a snot! gr. i cant stand people physicly fighting. you know what else i cant stand, my mom on my case all the time about every thing. "see if i do that for you any more" she says. newsflash mom, you raised me and if you dont like it, thats your fault. i do do a lot around here, i mean sometimes i dont but when people are constantly telling me to clean up after everyone else? hum lets see where conflict comes in... i cleaned up MY mess.....
Tyler Dean just IMd me =] oh and BTW - the new "gay" is LAME. the word gay just doesnt do it for me any more. its too common and plus its totaly discriminating. i hate it. so lame is totaly in, spread the word. ha that reminds me, i said BLUNT the other day as refering to someone who was straight forward and my sister thought it meant "COOL" haha. that was pretty funny.
speaking of shan i guess her and ryan arent gettin along. its such a shame it really is. i like ryan A LOT and i feel bad that my sisters crazy party ways just arent his style. i feel totaly bad. i wish things just worked out. shes supposed to be "moving in" on saturday. gee this outta be fun. i mean i miss my sister but idk, her moving back in? i want her here so bad but i just wish things would stay the same, yah know? everything was working out so well, but i guess it wasnt. ha look at my rambling on about this.
well im out... gunna try to write something good tonight but im not sure ill be able to... =\ we'll see =]=]
♥ you know who
anyways along with other news ann beat the snot outta emilee today, not literaly. we ended up pulling over the car and talking everything out. though i was thoroughly distracted with the face on the shed, i heard every word that they talked about. this is where i learned the lesson. whether it will stick with me is a different story. hopefully all this bad attitude and strange ways are out of her system. i just hope for the best with her, thats all i really can do. ive tried to have her follow my ways, but then again not everyone is lyk me ( THANK GOD! )
I was really considering my relationship with trooper today. things have got to change. along with emilee my confidence level has dropped and he totaly took advantage of that. its really ridiculous how so much can change. i just want him to be happy. he needs a purpose i guess... looks like some thoroughbred research is in need here =\. i hate reading!
anyways.... my little brother is sitting here watchin wrestling which is completely driving me bonkers and my mom just called me a snot! gr. i cant stand people physicly fighting. you know what else i cant stand, my mom on my case all the time about every thing. "see if i do that for you any more" she says. newsflash mom, you raised me and if you dont like it, thats your fault. i do do a lot around here, i mean sometimes i dont but when people are constantly telling me to clean up after everyone else? hum lets see where conflict comes in... i cleaned up MY mess.....
Tyler Dean just IMd me =] oh and BTW - the new "gay" is LAME. the word gay just doesnt do it for me any more. its too common and plus its totaly discriminating. i hate it. so lame is totaly in, spread the word. ha that reminds me, i said BLUNT the other day as refering to someone who was straight forward and my sister thought it meant "COOL" haha. that was pretty funny.
speaking of shan i guess her and ryan arent gettin along. its such a shame it really is. i like ryan A LOT and i feel bad that my sisters crazy party ways just arent his style. i feel totaly bad. i wish things just worked out. shes supposed to be "moving in" on saturday. gee this outta be fun. i mean i miss my sister but idk, her moving back in? i want her here so bad but i just wish things would stay the same, yah know? everything was working out so well, but i guess it wasnt. ha look at my rambling on about this.
well im out... gunna try to write something good tonight but im not sure ill be able to... =\ we'll see =]=]
♥ you know who