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Today kinda sucked.. I stayed home because I had a killer headache. I slept almost all day, and it felt awesome to be lazy. I'm getting stressed out lately because of all these expectations. But I need to suck it up some more, I don't have too much longer where I can just go with the flow again. I mean, not like it was before.. but party a little. I NEED TO PARTY!
I went to Kyles wake today in Manch with chels and Missy. Boy, was that fucking miserable. He's how I always knew him.. except I knew him when he was alive and full of life anyways. It's too bad we went so long without talking, years.. I wish I could have known him before he had to leave us. Rest In Peace bro. I saw Aj their. We just looked at eachother and did one of those silent hellos. Poor Aj. He looked so sad, so uneasy. I wanted to hug him so bad, but I couldn't. I knew he was grieving.
I was pissed because on the way their I had pot smoke being blown in my face by everyone, and missy was in the backseat crushing up pills. I mean come on, isn't getting high enough? Did she really feel the need to snort up pills before going into the funeral and seeing our long lost friend lying there dead in his casket? What the fuck.. she was talking about how god forgives people when they ask him to, but how can god forgive someone who acts like a complete failure. Everytime I see Missy she is always fucked up off of pills. Shes 18, doesn't have a job, and lost her license for life pratically.
Listen to me, I'm preaching... I have no right.
I havent seen Craig today, nor will I see him tomorrow. We got into a blow out last night, wasn't too pretty. I don't know who I am when I'm with him.. I don't even know who he is. He makes me have a personalty disfunction for real.
I got a card in the mail today from my step dad.. he gave me 50 bucks. How excting. I'm so happy he's in my life again. I missed him more than anyone could ever imagine. I feel so much more complete now. I'm going to spend my 50 bucks the best way I know how.. pampering myself with Chelsea. Tomorrow after we have detention we are going tanning than to get our nails done, after that we are going to go to the fair with her dad. I'm excited.
Well I guess thats all. Much Love<3
I went to Kyles wake today in Manch with chels and Missy. Boy, was that fucking miserable. He's how I always knew him.. except I knew him when he was alive and full of life anyways. It's too bad we went so long without talking, years.. I wish I could have known him before he had to leave us. Rest In Peace bro. I saw Aj their. We just looked at eachother and did one of those silent hellos. Poor Aj. He looked so sad, so uneasy. I wanted to hug him so bad, but I couldn't. I knew he was grieving.
I was pissed because on the way their I had pot smoke being blown in my face by everyone, and missy was in the backseat crushing up pills. I mean come on, isn't getting high enough? Did she really feel the need to snort up pills before going into the funeral and seeing our long lost friend lying there dead in his casket? What the fuck.. she was talking about how god forgives people when they ask him to, but how can god forgive someone who acts like a complete failure. Everytime I see Missy she is always fucked up off of pills. Shes 18, doesn't have a job, and lost her license for life pratically.
Listen to me, I'm preaching... I have no right.
I havent seen Craig today, nor will I see him tomorrow. We got into a blow out last night, wasn't too pretty. I don't know who I am when I'm with him.. I don't even know who he is. He makes me have a personalty disfunction for real.
I got a card in the mail today from my step dad.. he gave me 50 bucks. How excting. I'm so happy he's in my life again. I missed him more than anyone could ever imagine. I feel so much more complete now. I'm going to spend my 50 bucks the best way I know how.. pampering myself with Chelsea. Tomorrow after we have detention we are going tanning than to get our nails done, after that we are going to go to the fair with her dad. I'm excited.
Well I guess thats all. Much Love<3