A Tale of Two Jasons...

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I just got off the phone with my ex Jason and I'm over the moon. It still amazes me how close we are after all of these years. We hadnt spoken in three years the last time we lost contact and we still pick up right where we left off.  I'm glad he found me again. I always wonder if hang up calls at night are him,...because he always calls late at night...and come to find out, he says more often than not they are him, because he is thinking about me and has lost my cell again...but always has my house number memorized.  : ) He makes me feel special. He will call and tell me allllllll about the problems he is having with his baby's mama...and tell me about Victoria (his daughter) and just mundane bulshit, and then he asks why I'm so quiet.....i just love hearing him talk, and i know venting to me makes him feel good. Whenever we hang up he always says I love you and it makes me feel so normal....like i mean something to someone out there...even though we arent dating, and have done been moved on with our lives....we still are special to each other and it will always be that way. i dont feel like he is using me....it isnt ...i love you, give me money, i love you, sleep with me, i love you, let me borrow your car....i dont think he has EVER asked for anything....he does live in arizona, but thats besides the point...he is a hard worker and wants to get everything he has on his own, and its so strange to hear him yelling at the kids on the street corner by the pay phone to stop picking on a lil girl when he WAS that little kid on the pay phone with me picking on some girl 7 years ago....hehe....i started laughing today on the phone and he wasnt sure why...ya know, he didnt even know i was a painter!!!! he had no idea i was artistic at all..i didnt find that out until after we lost connection...he doesnt like me to say we broke up because technically, we never did....heh...but uh, yea, he remembers how much i like poetry, and he writes poems about me from time to time....i love hearing him pull out a crumpled piece of paper out of his pocket and read me a poem about how he is so glad im still his friend and still care about him when not a lot of people do....I absolutely LOVE hearing from him, and hearing all about his life and what not, the good and the bad....its sort of how i imagined Chris and I would have been.....but that didnt quite go according to plan...heh....anyhow, i always wondered when we were dating what Jason would be like when he got older...and i was right, he is a good man now...and a good father...im glad i had faith in him when not a lot of other people did. i knew he was a good kid with a good heart, he just hung out with losers...now he knows better...i love how happy he sounds when he talks to me....i love how his baby's mama (they are broken up) kept being a bitch and asking who he was on the phone with and he would say something smart ass like "the love of my life" or "the only girl that has ever treated me right"....hehe....i dont know the girl so i dont hate her or anything, but i still think its funny how he puts me first....im sure he only talks like that      about me when we are on the phone...but its cute. anyhow, talking to Jason makes me smile...lots....:)

in other Jason news .....skraps got a cell phone and called  me the other day!!!! that made me happy as hell. i freaking love him so much!!!!! :) mmm, my jasons make me happy as hell.