spring cleaning for the soul

[xtriggerxhappyx]

at what point did i give up? when did i let my world morph from beautifully massive and limitless playground into a two mile strech of dusty suburban sidewalk. i had dreams. i had the world in my palms. now all i have is trembling fingers, and volumes upon volumes of questions. when you think the answers will lay in the bottom of the next bottle, you tend to end up disapointed. where did apathy begin to take over? like a virus it spread through all aspects of my life. why did i deadbolt every door? why did i try so hard to hide when all i knew i needed to do was search? when did i lose myself and become this perversion of a human? the world turned one day and at the time the suns first light came creeping over the atlantic sky line everything was upsidedown. and i let myself turn with it.

i realized this today watching the sunset over the pacific. all i can do now is promise myself to stand up and find all these things that i have let go astray. find myself again.

knowledge.