Meme Time.
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
10. I miss the way we used to be. A lot. And I wish more than anything we could be that way again, but I'm scared. I'm not giving up. I am trying.
9. I'm trying not to to feel hurt by the lack of acknowledgement because I truly, deeply know you didn't mean it personally. It's one of the only things I'm scared to ask you about. I don't want you to feel cornered.
8. I never in a million years thought I would like you as much as I do, but you have earned my respect over the last few months.
7. I wish I was sorry, but I'm not. Not really.
6. I don't really know what to say to you anymore. So I pretty much don't say anything.
5. I miss you, you bitch. :P Get online more!! Stop being sick dammit! :P :P
4. I wonder if you miss me half as much as I miss you. I wonder if you miss anything at all, or if you spend your time too trashed to feel anything. :/
3. Stop being so hard on yourself! You're awesome and a great friend and I love you dearly. I wish you could see yourself the way that I see you!
2. I really do see you as a sister. If we could legally adopt a sibling, I'd do it in a heartbeat because I lovez you.
1. Even though we don't talk as often as we used to, I think of you all the time. And I'm SO glad you're in my life.
9 Things about yourself:
9. I hate the bitter, angry, resentful person I've become over the last few months.
8. I wish I had as much faith in myself as some of my friends do.
7. I have the hardest time telling people no.
6. I still occasionally miss someone who hurt me very badly. How dumb is that?
5. I don't miss someone I once considered a best friend because of the way she treated my other best friend. It's one of the few friendships I've "lost" that I never felt really sad over.
4. I'm much more likely to take my guinea pigs to the vet than I am to see a doctor.
3. I'm not sure I believe in reincarnation, but I deeply believe that one day Bozzie is going to return to me in another form.
2. I still don't think I'm going to live past 30. I just can't see anything beyond 30 for myself. And it's not because I'm scared of aging. I literally see nothing at all. I don't think I'll be here.
1. I used to give people chance after chance after chance if they did something to hurt me. These days, I'm not wasting my time anymore. Even if I like you, I have to take care of myself.
8 ways to win your heart:
8. Express real interest in my writing.
7. Love guinea pigs.
6. Like my friends.
5. Give me space and know that because I need it, it doesn't mean I don't like or care about you.
4. Saving the world (or doing my best) is important to me. Let it be important to you too.
3. Be a Death Cab for Cutie and Sarah McLachlan fan!
2. Accept that at heart, I will always be a fangirl. :P
1. Enjoy Sims 2. :P
Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
7. I am never going to get these debts paid off so I can move out.
6. I don't know if I can do this.
5. I want to go home and play Sims.
4. I want to go home and write.
3. I want to go home and sleep.
2. Coffee. Need. Coffee. Now.
1. If that damn phone rings one more time, I'm quitting.
Six things you do before you fall asleep: (and / or)
6. Give the piggies a veggie treat.
5. Go potty.
4. Flip on the TV to check for weather warnings.
3. Tell people goodnight.
2. Hope morning doesn't come for ages.
1. Close my eyes.
Five people who mean a lot.
I really can't narrow this down to just five as it's making me choose just five to list and excluding others. So I won't answer this other than - everyone I know means a lot to me.
Four things you're wearing right now.
4. Blue and black tank top.
3. Pair of long blue jean shorts
2. Lapis lazuli bracelet
1. Watch
Three songs that you listen to often (currently):
3. Brothers on a Motel Bed--Death Cab For Cutie
2. Soul Meets Body--Death Cab for Cutie
1. Lost! by Coldplay
Two things you want to do before you die:
2. Finish writing a novel.
1. Help change someone's life for the better.
One confession:
1. I'm not sure my soul is in writing anymore.
10. I miss the way we used to be. A lot. And I wish more than anything we could be that way again, but I'm scared. I'm not giving up. I am trying.
9. I'm trying not to to feel hurt by the lack of acknowledgement because I truly, deeply know you didn't mean it personally. It's one of the only things I'm scared to ask you about. I don't want you to feel cornered.
8. I never in a million years thought I would like you as much as I do, but you have earned my respect over the last few months.
7. I wish I was sorry, but I'm not. Not really.
6. I don't really know what to say to you anymore. So I pretty much don't say anything.
5. I miss you, you bitch. :P Get online more!! Stop being sick dammit! :P :P
4. I wonder if you miss me half as much as I miss you. I wonder if you miss anything at all, or if you spend your time too trashed to feel anything. :/
3. Stop being so hard on yourself! You're awesome and a great friend and I love you dearly. I wish you could see yourself the way that I see you!
2. I really do see you as a sister. If we could legally adopt a sibling, I'd do it in a heartbeat because I lovez you.
1. Even though we don't talk as often as we used to, I think of you all the time. And I'm SO glad you're in my life.
9 Things about yourself:
9. I hate the bitter, angry, resentful person I've become over the last few months.
8. I wish I had as much faith in myself as some of my friends do.
7. I have the hardest time telling people no.
6. I still occasionally miss someone who hurt me very badly. How dumb is that?
5. I don't miss someone I once considered a best friend because of the way she treated my other best friend. It's one of the few friendships I've "lost" that I never felt really sad over.
4. I'm much more likely to take my guinea pigs to the vet than I am to see a doctor.
3. I'm not sure I believe in reincarnation, but I deeply believe that one day Bozzie is going to return to me in another form.
2. I still don't think I'm going to live past 30. I just can't see anything beyond 30 for myself. And it's not because I'm scared of aging. I literally see nothing at all. I don't think I'll be here.
1. I used to give people chance after chance after chance if they did something to hurt me. These days, I'm not wasting my time anymore. Even if I like you, I have to take care of myself.
8 ways to win your heart:
8. Express real interest in my writing.
7. Love guinea pigs.
6. Like my friends.
5. Give me space and know that because I need it, it doesn't mean I don't like or care about you.
4. Saving the world (or doing my best) is important to me. Let it be important to you too.
3. Be a Death Cab for Cutie and Sarah McLachlan fan!
2. Accept that at heart, I will always be a fangirl. :P
1. Enjoy Sims 2. :P
Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
7. I am never going to get these debts paid off so I can move out.
6. I don't know if I can do this.
5. I want to go home and play Sims.
4. I want to go home and write.
3. I want to go home and sleep.
2. Coffee. Need. Coffee. Now.
1. If that damn phone rings one more time, I'm quitting.
Six things you do before you fall asleep: (and / or)
6. Give the piggies a veggie treat.
5. Go potty.
4. Flip on the TV to check for weather warnings.
3. Tell people goodnight.
2. Hope morning doesn't come for ages.
1. Close my eyes.
Five people who mean a lot.
I really can't narrow this down to just five as it's making me choose just five to list and excluding others. So I won't answer this other than - everyone I know means a lot to me.
Four things you're wearing right now.
4. Blue and black tank top.
3. Pair of long blue jean shorts
2. Lapis lazuli bracelet
1. Watch
Three songs that you listen to often (currently):
3. Brothers on a Motel Bed--Death Cab For Cutie
2. Soul Meets Body--Death Cab for Cutie
1. Lost! by Coldplay
Two things you want to do before you die:
2. Finish writing a novel.
1. Help change someone's life for the better.
One confession:
1. I'm not sure my soul is in writing anymore.