The letter I wrote Jennifer
I know, or I hope at least, that you're wondering why I left your
house on Tuesday night, thus ending our relationship. Well, I will
tell you why.
I couldn't handle it.
Since Sunday morning, you had not been very, well, nice to me to say
the least. You had even gone so far as to reject my signs of affection
for you. You often made me want to cry right on the spot. I mean, I
spent more time with Vicky and your mom than I did with you, and that
was totally against my plans. I came down to be with you, but you were
always doing other things. I know, I was being totally selfish, but
you were either having your girl talks with your mom or Vicki, or
trying to get Kaitlyn to sleep. Once more, I apologize for being
selfish. I didn't CARE about whether or not we had sex or anything,
but to simply shrug me off like you did, was in my book, very uncalled
for.
Also, on another note, the whole "You calling me boring" statement set
me off. For one, I didn't race that chick because of two reasons. 1,
The car isn't mine, and there was a good chance of the car stalling
while in mid-race, and 2. I'm just not that kind of person to race
someone. Imagine how I'd have felt after I lost, which was going to
happen. I
Also, I didn't stop to chat with those 30+ people because I know what
happens when a random person does that. They get the living crap beat
out of them, and because I'm not big on talking to strangers,
especially a squadron of them.
And, as for those three fellows, I decided not to follow them because,
well, they could have been potential killers. They could have had guns
and bullets with our names on them. Also, their women looked ready to
start something, and I didn't feel like intervening in that.
Basically, what I am trying to get around to saying is, I am not
mature enough for a relationship with you. Maybe in the future, but
not now. I have too much that I need to take care of first. I'm not
ready for a relationship, especially with a girl who is a mother. I
need to graduate High School and College, then get my book published
before I do anything involving romance or spousal commitments. I'm not
good enough for you, Jenn. I never have been, and I doubt I ever will
be.
But what sets me off the most is the fact that you didn't even try to
stop me from leaving. That didn't anger me as much as it did make me
cry all the way home. Yes, I cried believe it or not. Oh well, not
your business to know of my emotions, I guess.
Anyways...I'm back in Daytona now, so you never have to see me again.
I'm not going to hold a grudge against you, but I am going to move on
because...
1. You will most likely NEVER give me another chance, and...
2. I really don't think I deserve one, and finally...
3. You deserve a better person than me, and believe me, there are MANY
men better than myself.
But I am not angry at you. I will always have a spot for you in my
heart, but I don't consider this a goodbye, just a "See you around"
because you never know. Well, I'm off to cry myself to sleep now. Tell
Vicky, Rebecca and Kaitlyn I said hi. You keep reaching for your
dreams. I know you can do it.
xoxoxoxoxox
Anthony Carey
house on Tuesday night, thus ending our relationship. Well, I will
tell you why.
I couldn't handle it.
Since Sunday morning, you had not been very, well, nice to me to say
the least. You had even gone so far as to reject my signs of affection
for you. You often made me want to cry right on the spot. I mean, I
spent more time with Vicky and your mom than I did with you, and that
was totally against my plans. I came down to be with you, but you were
always doing other things. I know, I was being totally selfish, but
you were either having your girl talks with your mom or Vicki, or
trying to get Kaitlyn to sleep. Once more, I apologize for being
selfish. I didn't CARE about whether or not we had sex or anything,
but to simply shrug me off like you did, was in my book, very uncalled
for.
Also, on another note, the whole "You calling me boring" statement set
me off. For one, I didn't race that chick because of two reasons. 1,
The car isn't mine, and there was a good chance of the car stalling
while in mid-race, and 2. I'm just not that kind of person to race
someone. Imagine how I'd have felt after I lost, which was going to
happen. I
Also, I didn't stop to chat with those 30+ people because I know what
happens when a random person does that. They get the living crap beat
out of them, and because I'm not big on talking to strangers,
especially a squadron of them.
And, as for those three fellows, I decided not to follow them because,
well, they could have been potential killers. They could have had guns
and bullets with our names on them. Also, their women looked ready to
start something, and I didn't feel like intervening in that.
Basically, what I am trying to get around to saying is, I am not
mature enough for a relationship with you. Maybe in the future, but
not now. I have too much that I need to take care of first. I'm not
ready for a relationship, especially with a girl who is a mother. I
need to graduate High School and College, then get my book published
before I do anything involving romance or spousal commitments. I'm not
good enough for you, Jenn. I never have been, and I doubt I ever will
be.
But what sets me off the most is the fact that you didn't even try to
stop me from leaving. That didn't anger me as much as it did make me
cry all the way home. Yes, I cried believe it or not. Oh well, not
your business to know of my emotions, I guess.
Anyways...I'm back in Daytona now, so you never have to see me again.
I'm not going to hold a grudge against you, but I am going to move on
because...
1. You will most likely NEVER give me another chance, and...
2. I really don't think I deserve one, and finally...
3. You deserve a better person than me, and believe me, there are MANY
men better than myself.
But I am not angry at you. I will always have a spot for you in my
heart, but I don't consider this a goodbye, just a "See you around"
because you never know. Well, I'm off to cry myself to sleep now. Tell
Vicky, Rebecca and Kaitlyn I said hi. You keep reaching for your
dreams. I know you can do it.
xoxoxoxoxox
Anthony Carey