Its personal, so don't read it if you are not ready

Mar 20, 2006 22:09

Tonight my father told me he is thinking about leaving his wife. Tonight he told me he was dead inside, that he was not going to end his life, but he did not care if he didn’t see tomorrow. What does a son do to help? He has been building out my step-brother’s basement to act as a home. I had thought he was doing this for them both to live closer to her son. He is not moving in, once he gets his wife moved in it’s over. He said he has been feeling this way for more than two years. She knows nothing of this, so he is deceiving her.
I don’t know what to do; I suggested that he go back to therapy. My father swears that he has not cheated on her, but that their love life is not what it use to be. My father has always had a habit of telling me way too much about this aspect of his life. He is looking at women younger than I am, I can’t believe this. I think he is looking to fill a void in his life, but I do not think he will find happiness in this way.
I’m at a loss, I am the only son my father has that will do any thing to help, and I don’t know what to do. It hurt me deeply when my father looked me in the eye and told me he did not care if he lived to see the next day, that he was already dead inside. On the drive home I started to cry pondering this, and even now I find my self fighting back the tears.
He was not a great father when I grew up, cutting me down every chance he had emotionally, but he sought therapy for this over the years and told me how sorry he was. I can forgive any one that will seek out help. I had no idea that he has been unhappy for so long, I feel I should have seen a sign, some thing. I also feel obliged to my step-mother, I told him deceive her was wrong. My mind and heart are in a storm of emotion and I just don’t know what to do….
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