artisticly respectable, enyet too..rusty, sry, im a little out of practice

[xtremechick2b]

i really dont expect ne one to read this, just thought id post it up. and no im not crying for attention. just wanted to write something deep

Crawled in my own filth once again
Found that inflicting place where I have been
Not once or twice, lost count already
Sitting with myself, loud silence dancing merrily
Though my thoughts a giant crowd screaming
No use now, no use redeeming
A volume button raised on everything
Frustration appears, and begins slowly leaking
Red filled with such emotions, dripping away
Sharpness staring away in shame, abused in my own way
Screaming leaks softer, I’m left to gaze
Inner silence becomes bliss, but I’m left in a daze
Drained of red, drained of willpower
Rising action thoughts falling like a tower
Outer pain poking me like unfed children
But without comparison to the bitter pain within
People witness, confusion is above
Above all reason, emotion, even love
Motivation my worst and most powerful enemy
always able to take control of me
I feel the children poking me again
Fearing further pain, knowing, its not the end…