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/*\Stats/*\
name: Stephanie
age: 17
home: Williamsport A.k.A. Whirly-Town
gender: Female
birthday: December 30, 1986
/*\Currents/*\
mood: Tired, pissed off…
music: Avril CD
location: Work
activity: Thinking about stuff (not really an activity) & Typing
/*\Others/*\
color of your chair: Red
on your mouse pad [other than your mouse]: Logo for some computer company
toilet paper from top or bottom of roll: ??
ready for a long survey?: Fuckin Right!!
/*\Lasts/*\
talked on phone with: Mom
IM: (Does texts online count?) Jason
emailed: Other than journal comments…nothing
forwarded email: Forever
song stuck in head: Umm…
time went out: Last night
movie: Saw w/ KP
TV show: Umm…
played with a balloon: Sweet Sixteen
slept: Last night
actually worked: Today 12:30-4:00
cried: Last week sometime...
laughed: Last night
heartache: Last night
sickness: Umm…
party: “A Real Party” was a couple of weeks back & Mummers Parade
sleep over: Last night at Tay’s house
/*\More random things/*\
2 in 1 shampoo conditioner or separate: Separate-Herbal Essences
shower or bath: Shower, but I love my bubble baths…hehe
bubbles?: Yeppers!
cordless, cell or normal: Cell, I would feel lost without it
play any instruments and what are they: Nope!
/*\Currents /*\
book: I really don’t read…but, A Walk to Remember
visits: Florida
rant: Umm…
fav. quote: “Never allow someone to be your priority, while only being there option”
inside joke: There’s to many to name off…haha
internet acronym: Umm…
/*\A clue/*\
Deepest secret: Duh, they’re secrets! The internet is the last place for those…
crush [if you have one], typed with your nose and your eyes shut: huh!?
/*\Love/*\
felt it?: Yes
want to?: Not at the moment
one characteristic of the ideal significant other: Funny!!
another one: Loyal
how about opposite?: Cheating
/*\Food/*\
last meal: This morning
what did you eat: Cereal
prefer Pepsi, Coke, or neither: Regular Coke but Diet Pepsi
/*\Fear/*\
Would you eat asphalt for money?: How Much $
How about a rabid tree?: No
Are you bored yet?: No it would take a lot more than this
/*\Have you ever/*\
broken a bone: Nope
been kissed [outside of family]: Of Course! I l.o.v.e. to kiss…
thought of suicide: Yea
cried for no reason: Yea I have those moments sometimes
stole something: Yea
told a secret: Just to my B.F. Tay
kept one: Yeppers!
worn pink socks with yellow pants: I don’t have yellow pants
been heart broken: Yep
been happy: Yea, most of the time
/*\Are you/*\
happy: I guess
depressed: Somewhat
there for others: Yep whenever they call
tolerant: Depends
strong: Yea definitely
intelligent: Yea
/*\Your friends and enemies/*\
funniest: Jason & Shaddy
uSeS mOsT WeIrD InTrNt sLaYnGuH: ??
most annoying: Umm…
meanest: I can’t say
closest in location: Ash
closest in heart: Tay
farthest away: Scott
complimented the most: Everyone
prettiest/handsomest: Tay & KP / Scott (they come close)
you are jealous of: I can’t say
you hate: I really don’t hate anyone, I dislike people…
most inside jokes with: .:*ThE TrIo*:.
richest: Umm…
most popular: Everyone is in their own way…
oldest: Shaddy and Tay
youngest: Ash
/*\Habits/*\
bite your nails: No I have fake ones
wear makeup: Of course
dress trendy: Yeppers
cologne/perfume?: Tommy Girl and Lucky U
type fast?: Yeppers 72 wpm, I think?
type correctly?: Most times
pick your nose: Ewww!!
/*\Stereotypes directions: name someone you know for each, make sure one is you/*\
nerd: Kenny lol
geek: ThE TrIo
dork: Ash
jock: Kenny & Scott
prep: Jason
band geek: Tay was…lol Sorry Tay but you were
twinkie [Asian on outside, white on inside]: ??
racist: Shaddy LOL (well I mean he was joking about it one day so I might be wrong)
goth: ??
outsider: Scott
person-next-door: Me
miz[ter] perfecto: Scott
/*\Obsessions/*\
website: Journals
celebrity/ies: Chad Michael Murray
tv show: Laguna Beach and One Tree Hill
color:PiNk & Black
comic: Rodney Carrington
/*\Name one/*\
rapper: Luda
singer: Ciara
boy band: Backstreet Boys
girl band: Destiny’s Child
punk band: Avril
emo band: ??
guitarist: Avril
listen to the radio?: Yeppers
online radio?: Not anymore
/*\More others/*\
own computer?: Nope
slack off at work/school: Of cousre lol
have a blog: ??
have an email: Yeppers
play rpgs: No
used to internet slang: Sometimes
/*\Acronym test/*\
OOC: ??
LOL: Laugh out loud / Lots of laughs (right Tay)
ROFL: ??
ROFFLMFAO: ??
RPG: ??
WTF: What the fuck?
OMG: OH MY GOD!
BBL: Be back later !
BRB: Be right back.
G2G: Got to go.
JAT: just asking that
JW: Just wondering.
JP: Just playin!
JK: Just kidding. JK'in!!
LYL:love ya lots
TTYL: Talk to ya later.
AFK: ??
(Apparently you can tell I’m not on the Internet that much…lol)
I started this entry yesterday but I ran out of time to update…
Last night I was fine until I came home and laid down. I feel like shit! My throat hurts, my neck aches, my head hurts…it sucks sooo bad, I hate not feeling well. Last night was one of the first nights in about 3 months that I had decent sleep, and tonight is going to be the second. I have to work tomorrow morning at 7:30 again so I’m going to need my rest. Then I work for Leiter’s Sat and Sun…ewww! Oh well I need the money for Christmas Shopping so…I mean shit! Money doesn’t grow on trees and I have a car to pay for and Christmas/Birthdays to deal with. Responsibility you ask for it and then you want to give it right back…haha! The other night I colored my hair, I guess it looks okay. Shaddy and Tay like it a little better than I do. But I think I want to go back to a darker color. I need to start going to the tanning bed too because my ass is getting to look like Tay (JP girlie girl, but you know you need a tan.) The Christmas parade in Williamsport is this Sunday. I’m excited…they are going to light the big tree and you get to eat free cookies and drink free hot chocolate! Yum…I can’t wait! I think Tay, KP, Ash and Me are going. I’m not totally positive about Ash but you really never know about her. She’s dealing with a lot lately so I don’t blame her. I know we are going to have so much fun though. I always get a laugh out of Tay. I told her the other day that we always laugh and we have no fuckin clue why…and guess what she did…LAUGH! Lol…so of course I had to laugh too. But anyways…KP and I are still friends after all the bullshit I had to deal with. I told him I’m just not ready for a serious relationship yet. He said he understood but I know he hurts. But hey I would rather have his friendship than nothing at all, you know? So I’m going to take it for what it’s worth. I just hope I don’t get confused along the way, because I feel like I am already starting too. I have closure with some other stuff in my life. Done and over it and I’m proud of myself…I’m still holding on to someone but I know it won’t be long until it will hit me, “I’m not going to be with him again!” *tear* I’ll get over it…I always do. Well usually I’m forced to. I’ve lost a lot of what is comfortable to me and I think that’s what scares me the most. Nowhere and no one to run to, you know? Well I’m out, I’ll update later…
“Nobody’s Home”
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
True Story: "Girls use SEX for love, and Guys use love for SEX"
Y can't it be the other way around...girls need to get there's too wit no strings. Right Girls: lets change that...