im sorry
eh...today was a feel weird day..i just...couldnt...::sigh::...i dont know...all i want to do is talk to her now telling her how sorry i am for making her think i was mad at her...im not...never would be..just felt weird thats all...when certain people where there too..grr...i guess i was just mad it couldnt be like tuesday...thats all i suppose...hopefully soon i will get my chance...it hurt me not to be able to just...give her a long hug...thats all...ugh..im soo..::sigh::..watever..talking about this subject is just so hard...but then it helps when i do...i dont know what to do to be honest...but i just want to let you know im sorry..for letting you think that i was mad at you..i shouldnt of been so selfish...i hope you forgive me...just..my missing for you is strong...and..chelsea made me feel bad to even want to see you...i wasnt avoiding you i swear ( just in case you thought that or anything)..im just...sorry...i really hope i can talk to you soon about everything...because i dont want you guestimating things that are totally wrong...plz forgive me..ehhh..