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why have i been crying all day!!?? it just wont stop!?? i have no fucking reason to cry!!!!!!! Yet, i feel so NOT in control of my life and that drives me crazy! i have no idea what/where/who ill be with in a year and that scares the shit out of me. Should i just "roll with the punches" and not plan and live life? or am i right to want to have a plan and know almost exaclty what/who./where ill be in a year?? someone please tell me!!!
i just started crying at dinner tonight. what the fuck is wrong with me!? (yes, it is period time. So yes PMS is a big part of this) but i dont even get myself.
I like don so much, i really want a future with him. he makes me laugh and smile so much!!! yet. he just got a job offer that will keep him in eville for 5 years!!!!!! he knows i want to move. he says dont stay here for him...............ouch. of course that hurts my feelings cause i just want him to fall in love with me i guess.......
i dont know what i want.
i dont know what i need.
i just started crying at dinner tonight. what the fuck is wrong with me!? (yes, it is period time. So yes PMS is a big part of this) but i dont even get myself.
I like don so much, i really want a future with him. he makes me laugh and smile so much!!! yet. he just got a job offer that will keep him in eville for 5 years!!!!!! he knows i want to move. he says dont stay here for him...............ouch. of course that hurts my feelings cause i just want him to fall in love with me i guess.......
i dont know what i want.
i dont know what i need.