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my stomach is churning...i feel ill
i know its how upset i am...but it feels like sickness, i feel the bile building up to the top of my throat..is she angry right now? is that just the way she expresses sadness. i could throw up right now if i coughed. i'll hold it in til it goes away, just like the tears that dripped and dried in a matter of a minute...she doesnt know that im really hurt....how can a minute of tears express that... even if thats more crying then ive done in years. she can squeeze water from the stone. she just doesnt know how honest ive been about that.
i know its how upset i am...but it feels like sickness, i feel the bile building up to the top of my throat..is she angry right now? is that just the way she expresses sadness. i could throw up right now if i coughed. i'll hold it in til it goes away, just like the tears that dripped and dried in a matter of a minute...she doesnt know that im really hurt....how can a minute of tears express that... even if thats more crying then ive done in years. she can squeeze water from the stone. she just doesnt know how honest ive been about that.