crack head... you blow my mind

[xtobybonesx]

right now, i couldnt be any more depressed and confused about life. but thanks to my friends and family, im still alive and at least 2 percent of me is happy. thats better than no percent. i have been thinking alot lately about being bisexual or maybe even just gay. i think ill stick with bisexual though. girls might not be for me. its seems like everytime i find a girl that all of my friends like and i love to death. she breaks my heart or things just dont work out. i dont know about this whole bisexual thing either though. i could definitly make out with a guy, but having sex with one is waaayyy out of my league. i could never do that. well all i want is someone to kiss and hug and talk to anyway so it shouldnt be too hard. i can give a shit about having sex with anyone. making out and cuddling with someone and having someone to talk to and trust and count on is what makes me happy. thats all i fucking want. LOVE. its pretty hard to find these days. spmeone said something to me last night that made me see things in a different way than i would ever think about. this person said "you should be happy with life before you find a girlfriend. cause if you depend on a girl to make you happy and then she decides to leave you or something, then your life and all the love that you give her would go with her. and life goes back down to being shit. youve got more friends than anyone could ever want. they care more about you than any girl could, so take advantage of that shit.i know you get jealous seeing all of your friends with girlfriends and stuff, and im sure there has been plenty of people jealous of you too in some way. but if you wait until you find that special girl, youll be happier than you thought you would ever be. she will be like finding a treasure that no one else could find and she will be one lucky girl to have you as her boyfriend." well it wasnt those exact words, but thats the basics. my life would be better if i had a girlfriend though. i think me not having a girlfriend is whats making me hate life. maybe. i dont know. i need to just say to hell with girls. or anyone for that matter. well life sucks thats all i have to say. and i love Brandi......Story Told is playing friday Sept 17 (my best friends B-day) at the millineum center in winston-salem with The Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza. thats going to be a fun show. im excited. everyone needs to come. next saturday sept 25th we are playing with Misery Signals at the brewery in raleigh. Glass Casket had to drop off. Misery Signals is awesome to though. i am working on getting us on the Throwdown/Norma Jean/Fear before the march of flames show on Oct 1 at ECU. thats going to be a fun show even if we dont play. just because of the fights im sure will happen. cause Throwdown is militant as crap and ECU is one of the top 25 party schools in america. so yeah. but as of right now we are not playing for sure. so please stop spreading rumors that we are eplaying with Norma Jean and what not. whoever you are. then on oct 2 we are playing with monday in london and recording a dvd video at aces basement. then Oct 6 we are playing with In the face of war at the innercity skatepark in high point. hopefully anyway. Sold America is playing for sure. well me and kool guy Drew Nelson are going to the music store and stuff. so i love you all. KGC/DTC.

Bring back the love that we once had.. please. I miss it. I LOVE S.O.S