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so school's finally out.
THANK GOD.
that means... time to do everything i couldn't.
time to have a clean room. time to laze around.
time to drag my fat body onto the treadmill/streets and work off the crap i eat.
time to eat less because i have better things to do.
time to laze around outside. and read. and get tan.
time to play tennis and amuse myself with whatever random crap i feel like.

and i finally just asked him [via myspace] what he thought of me.
he replied [predictably] that some days he was really into me, and other days he could hardly care about anyone at all. it wasn't me, it was him, and he wasn't ready for a commitment blah blah blah.
i about expired from happiness and relief.
he does like me! at least sometimes.
and thank GOD he's not into committing, because i'm definitely not either.
and i replied telling him so.
i'm happy to be his sometimes, sunny-day girl.
if he contacts me at all. -shrug-
i'll still look forward to his messages and cross my fingers for him to call, but i am NOT going to beat myself up about him any more.
i am content.
and free.
so free.
=3