Just like an arrow throough my heart
Last night was Michael's 18th birthday. We went to a Japanese restaurant and a bunch of us all went to play pool. I actually won 2 games!!!! We all pulled our money too to buy him a PS3. I got this text today in regards to his PS3:
"Oh my god. Your body aside, this has got to be the sexiest thing to ever exist."
:)
Things with him are...wow. Amazing. I'm going to miss him terribly when I'm in North Carolina. We're going to try to make things work though. He really wants to. Actually, we talked, and we talked about after university and everything and he wants an actual life with me. Here's the crazy thing: that would normally terrify me. Not just because we're both still so young but just the concept in itself had never been too important for me. I always thought it would be fine never marrying or all that stuff. I mean, I want to persue theatre and move all over. I said that if thing never worked in NYC that I'd try chicago or maybe even in the U.K. so having someone else never seemed to fit. Until now. I could see eventually having a life with him. All those things that I said I'd never do I can suddenly see clearly with him. The times that I've spent with him, lying in my bed in his arms and just looking in is eyes, I think to myself that that's something I could get used to. I've realized that I do want that. I want that with him.
I have texts on my phone that he's sent that I go back to that make me smile.
"Yeah, but every second that goes is one i lose with you :( "
"You make me happy you dork :) "
"Sleep well. i love you too, wish I could've told you...but I love you Kayla, so much."
Lord help me I think I've fallen in love.
"Oh my god. Your body aside, this has got to be the sexiest thing to ever exist."
:)
Things with him are...wow. Amazing. I'm going to miss him terribly when I'm in North Carolina. We're going to try to make things work though. He really wants to. Actually, we talked, and we talked about after university and everything and he wants an actual life with me. Here's the crazy thing: that would normally terrify me. Not just because we're both still so young but just the concept in itself had never been too important for me. I always thought it would be fine never marrying or all that stuff. I mean, I want to persue theatre and move all over. I said that if thing never worked in NYC that I'd try chicago or maybe even in the U.K. so having someone else never seemed to fit. Until now. I could see eventually having a life with him. All those things that I said I'd never do I can suddenly see clearly with him. The times that I've spent with him, lying in my bed in his arms and just looking in is eyes, I think to myself that that's something I could get used to. I've realized that I do want that. I want that with him.
I have texts on my phone that he's sent that I go back to that make me smile.
"Yeah, but every second that goes is one i lose with you :( "
"You make me happy you dork :) "
"Sleep well. i love you too, wish I could've told you...but I love you Kayla, so much."
Lord help me I think I've fallen in love.