it makes you think too much

[xtine_louise]

i decided today to stop letting shit get to me so much.
this is my life
and i have to learn to enjoi it
no matter what curve balls it throws me

i know there are alot of things i have to deal with
but why cant i just deal with them and move on?

i have to stop letting all the bad shit
become more important to me
then all the good things i have.

i have to stop letting all the bad shit
change my personality and the way i act
and the way i treat others.

you live and you learn.
much better then what ive had in my mind lately:
life sucks and then you die.
i dont want to think like that anymore.
everything that happens, happens for a reason
and you learn something somewhat benificial
from every situation you go through.

i have learned alot from the mistakes ive made
and i was hoping that others could learn from my mistakes too
but thats not always the case.

its definately true that you dont always think before you act.
im one that knows that first hand.

and ill apoligize..
for everyway that ive fucked up.
not that it changes that ive done it..
but just so its clear that i am sorry.
im sorry if i have mistreated anyone
or if ive treated anyone in a manner i shouldnt have.
im sorry if ive made anyone feel used
or like less of a person then they really are.

i understand that no one is perfect
i dont even think that there is such a thing as perfect.
trust me i should know.

but this is my life
and everyone that is a part of my life
effects what i have to go through.
same goes for others
where i am a part of their life.

i belive that time heals everything
and in my situations now
i really hope that its true.
i just hope that it gets better sooner then later.

the next chapter of my life is about to unfold
and im so fucking excited..