past
so i just read my old lj. miseriacantare0 it makes me
realize how ridiculous i was. how much i hated my
life and it made me very unhappy.
i think about where the last few years of my life went.
it feels like life didnt begin until evelyn was
born. i hate that fucker jayson to no end
but im sort of glad it happened.
im much more aware of my surroundings...
myself....
everything. im aware of my life.
its like i woke up when she was born.
i know what i want, i just dont know how to get it....
there must be an answer to everything.
as of right now i like my ilfe... sort of
some things need to be tweeked.
but i feel that im going somewhere. that im not alone...
at least not totally.
i need more tattoos though. that is one thing....
my eye still hurts.
realize how ridiculous i was. how much i hated my
life and it made me very unhappy.
i think about where the last few years of my life went.
it feels like life didnt begin until evelyn was
born. i hate that fucker jayson to no end
but im sort of glad it happened.
im much more aware of my surroundings...
myself....
everything. im aware of my life.
its like i woke up when she was born.
i know what i want, i just dont know how to get it....
there must be an answer to everything.
as of right now i like my ilfe... sort of
some things need to be tweeked.
but i feel that im going somewhere. that im not alone...
at least not totally.
i need more tattoos though. that is one thing....
my eye still hurts.