...too formiliar..
Yeah so i was listening to one of my cd's today and its sweet. I had sarah make me a mix with the list of songs i gave her. Anyways, yeah i was listening and then "white houses" came on..its a good song...
Totally is about eveyrthing going on now, and how my closest friendships are not there anymore or changed...it was just really wierd to like hear it all in a song...
Vanessa Carlton: "white houses"
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses [x3]
It just caught my eye. haha...but its soo like true and it sounds just like it. Theres things that could be said to why i think that sounds formiliar or like the whole situation from summer and on...til now, But those things wont exactly be in here for everybody and their moms to read...if you want to know youd have to talk to me about it haha, if your lucky youll know..
So yeah..bored to death. Ahhh and like every second of the freakin day i think of the same things. Same few people and things. And i cant stop it. I wish i didnt have to, but i do. Because what i think about is what i want it all to be,and it never in a million years could be anymore...it drives me NUTS. I mean, from eveyrthing in life, ive learned that somthing you REALLY would like to happen almost never will, ever. Either that or itll happen all too late. Bummer, huh. Just leaves me sad after the thoughts, but i guess i could say that since i dont stop myself of thinking about them, that the 5 minutes of happiness that lasts while i daydream about it is far worth having the sadness over. For the most part. see what i mean, i obviously was thinking about it all just now...or else i wouldnt have wrote this..!!! ugh
Also i hate how people can talk to you when they dont have that one person who doesnt like you, with them. Yeah i could say i knew someone like that. Someone who talked for like 30 minutes striaght to me while i just let out a couple of "yeah"s and "oh"s..lame. I only tried not to sound interested because i know that if that other person were to have been there, their wouldnt be a conversation that lasted even half a second between us. Everyonce in a while theres a couple of "hi"s...but too few to even WANT to count. Fucking ridiculous.....
And my whole point to that last thing, was so that the person who does that would figure it out, i mean, if they even could..
im out now..