Oct 01, 2004 10:00
this season i have been in for a whole is so long.its like a rollarcoaster too. i dnt know what to do with it sometimes.i acted and obeyed the lord but now actally BEING WHERE I AM and called to be right now and not letting my mind wonder to other places is really hard.im struggling and i want to be happy.i feel it sometimes but i feel like im in this battle and constantly fighting and then all the sudden i fall down and it gets to me....yes its getting to me.it got to me last night and now i am trying to overcome once again.being here is wonderful.i just need alot of strength righ tnow to make it this year. i dont know where next year holds me yet, i am really unique person because at my school i can sense stuff i think alot dont sense becuase they are not use to change at all....they dont like it.and its something i love.hmmmmmm.i dont know.i will press on. i just want to be simple and like jesus.
thats all.