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well, tomorrow is the last day of the year. Like always, i am stuck working. It's not too terrible. Things have changed for me a lot in the past week.
The ups:
I started to hang out with shanae(a wonderful girl i work with)
I got a new hair cut.
I have been working my ass off.
I have decided to not make one single new years resolution.
The downs:
My stepdad has decided it would be better if he didn't help me with school anymore(meaning i wont be able to go)
I think me moving out will have to happen soon(and i'm broke)
I am fairly sure i wont have to money to go see anna in january.
It is raining, and i hate the rain.
I wish m stepdad wasnt such a 2 year olds when it came to dealing with his problems. He really is the least mature adult i have ever come accross. As much as i want to stay in my house, with my mother and two brothers; i just need to get away from him. He can't handle anything hard that comes his way with out flipping out and going crazy. It's hard some times to have to be the adult, because i just want to be a stupid teenager still. I'm only 18, i wish i could act it. I wish i didn't have to work 2 jobs to pay for everything. I wish , i wish, i.......... need to stop wishing.
I am also tired of all of my friends thinking they need to be in a relationship with someone. I know having a significant other is nice, but always? I wish people could just find happiness on there own. Thats what being happy really is. It's friends, its yourself, its so many things.
I'm overr this entry.
The ups:
I started to hang out with shanae(a wonderful girl i work with)
I got a new hair cut.
I have been working my ass off.
I have decided to not make one single new years resolution.
The downs:
My stepdad has decided it would be better if he didn't help me with school anymore(meaning i wont be able to go)
I think me moving out will have to happen soon(and i'm broke)
I am fairly sure i wont have to money to go see anna in january.
It is raining, and i hate the rain.
I wish m stepdad wasnt such a 2 year olds when it came to dealing with his problems. He really is the least mature adult i have ever come accross. As much as i want to stay in my house, with my mother and two brothers; i just need to get away from him. He can't handle anything hard that comes his way with out flipping out and going crazy. It's hard some times to have to be the adult, because i just want to be a stupid teenager still. I'm only 18, i wish i could act it. I wish i didn't have to work 2 jobs to pay for everything. I wish , i wish, i.......... need to stop wishing.
I am also tired of all of my friends thinking they need to be in a relationship with someone. I know having a significant other is nice, but always? I wish people could just find happiness on there own. Thats what being happy really is. It's friends, its yourself, its so many things.
I'm overr this entry.