soul stealing.
ive been wasting my time all along.
i dont know what i did that was so wrong??? what did i
do to deserve any of this?
can you go even more insane when you start seeing your
sanity slipping through your finger trips?
dripping from your ears...
my brain no longer wants to hold these thoughts in any
longer. ive held my tongue for to long, i followed all
the rules.
i wasnt being true to myself, and now i am blowing up.
i feel sorry for the next kid who tries to get in my
way.
it wont be pretty.
im not pretty.
im pretty hunger, and i need another soul to steal.
im done with being nice.
and i was hoping i would never fall in love again, i
guess i got that wish...
blood stains 4 years away, and all the pain will remain.
inside.
bottled up.
and i got to let it out.
i got to let you out.
i got to cut you out.
carving with a knife.
deep into this life.
the blood looks like red pearls falling from the slits
in my skin.
i keep gashing and gashing until there is nothing more
within...
i am drained of this pain...until i wake up again
tommorrow.
ive always slept way to much, and now i cant find the
time to sleep.
i slept to get away from the world...a world who wanted
me.
i declined there invitation, i give my card to you.
i hope you go on with the follow through.
but they chew chew chew.
they are chewing all of you.
sticky spitty slimy lovers, want to control everything
you do.
i couldnt be a part of this.
i will not be held reliable.
your own your own now dear.
ive got to get some rest.
things dont hurt me..until its to late to fix it.
she is contaminated.
a disease amoung the sleeze.
she is the princess of the cancers, and the cause of all
your answers.
she is the fermenting old milk laying underneath your
brothers bed.
she is the reason for unrest inside your head.
she is the disease.
she is the sleeze.
she is the reason why you have to leave.
she is the reason for my flith.
and my greed.
she is what i need to help me get to sleep.
she is the sunshine in the sky, the atomic bombs going
off in my eyes...
she is me.
i can sleep when i am dead.
you tell me to close my eyes and imagine you..with your
arms wrapped around me.
and i tell you i cant.
and i wont.
because not having it really happening is worse than
anything that caused my saddness before.
i need you here with me.
ramblings
I cant escape the constent high.
another hit to get me by.
i want to get lost in the shawdows of darkness and get
lost in rainbow colored seas.
i want you to be waiting there for me.
i am constantly lost inside of my dreams.
drown down out my saddness drain out the happiness.
if you really want to be a killer than keep on talking.
your breaking.
breaking off plastic pieces.
ripping you apart.
destry?
what for?
i am only going to break your heart.
[whats new??]
-ive been talking to this boy...
who makes my heart smile.
..if hearts could smile instead of bleed.
-starting school in april Paul Mitchell hair school
-cassandra gailey