you cant live your life without drugs cassandra

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you cant live your life without drugs cassandra
life isnt living without them once you had them...its differnt. everything you see is so deflicted....i bought a new notebook today...its red, its gridding paper, i plan to write really small in it...fill it up, and then cut the cord on this incubator that is keeping me here.
i dont care.
lifelessly i am living already contained im dead.
cassandra lynn gailey.
i learned to love my name, and when people speak about me, its usualy the unusal.
im odd. thats ok..and i am in love with a dead girl....at least everyone knows it..but me...

i work. alot...i hate being underneath someone elses rule...i am my own, and i dont like being told what to do. i want to rebel....i want to start a revolution of writers, with tongues purging facts and death will be unatainable...
for i want to live forever.
death doesnt phase me...
never write something down you dont want anyone else to see someone somewhere sometime,anytime....will read...
may it be that crumbled piece of paper you wrote in math class.
the trash man laughed.
i love nicholas scribbled on it.
you will never know, he will never tell you so.
just let it go.

and come to the conclusion that everything you say and do changes your life, in little twirks...small....and ending huge...the end.
the grand finale.
its beautifull.
so live it.
i am living...
cassandra