heres a toast to all those who hear me all too well..
wow, i seriously have phases with this thing. like sometimes i have so much to say that i dont know where to start, and other times im just like ehh ill do it later..but i guess putting it off wont help at all, since venting is practicaly the only thing im good at. well right now i just got out of one of the most amazing conversations ever with matt. you know, those conversations where its just a bunch of things that you just want to let out to eachother, and things you've realized over time, and you just feel so good after..i cant even explain. anyway today i got added. and well she'll know what i mean. so i spent my whole afternoon just reading her journal, and all the things she has to say. i cant even explain how i feel after i read those entries. i wont say its entertaining, because then it would seem like im using her journal for amusement, but even though its different between us now, it makes me feel like i know everything about her, as different as we may be. to anyone else, this may sound insensitive, but i feel like i can relate. even tho i may not have gone through half of what shes gone through, i can understand. im not ignorant to the fact that any of that can happen to anyone, and different people have different ways of going about dealing with it. and personaly, after seeing her everyday, and from on outside point of view, i think taht shes gradually getting better, yet i dont know how it started out, or how she was in the summer. this may not seem fair at all but sometimes i wonder why certain people have things happen to them. like what did they ever do to deserve that, and wether or not they can handle it. its like as if God puts challenges upon certain people, not to test them, but to see how they react, or how they handle it. hm i dont know how to finish off this entry, but im hungry and im guna go eat. so more tomorow, or something.