jupiter...
so the huge planet is of course jupiter - the largest planet in our solar system. in front of it is one of jupiters moons - a moon that is about the same size as our own moon from earth - does that not fucking weird you out big time? it is like a pimple on the face of jupiter - thats how small it is. reeeediculous! i have been watching a lot of space shows lately on tv, and to think that jupiter is like over 1,000 times the size of earth fucks me up. makes me feel creeped out, and sort of scared in a way. like - can you imagine just how huge that is? and thats nothing compared to the sun - they say about 1,000 jupiters would fit inside the sun...?!?!?!?! how fucking small and insignificant do you feel now? im getting more and more into this space stuff, i decided that i want to get a telescope and check some of this shit out for myself. the more i watch the shows on the solar system and plantes - the less i feel like i should care about who does what in life. we are the only planet in our galaxy that we know of that can even sustain human life - and someday - eons from now - the sun will burn out and life is over. we started from molecules and atoms or some shit - and we will eventually ceast to exist. so if i know this - why do i care so much about stupid shit? honestly - its like "hello - theres no reason to care about bad shit cause we are a grain of sand on the big scale of things". egypt and the pyramids fascinate me. ive been filled with a desire to see them in person my whole life. no idea why - just remember hearing about it as a little kid and seeing pics, and i just had this huge pull to want to see them for myself, to be in them, to be scared of them but respect them and be inside something that people died building - never knowing that what they died building is still around today and still consumes people. and now i can add space to my list of things that are consuming me - and not just silly things like music or food or whatever - im talking stuff that makes your heart go all over the place and makes your mind go bonkers. i watch that stuff on tv and am just mystified - fear, excitement, anxiety, curiosity, awe - these all happen one after another in my body and mind. i think i need to go to the museum of science in town soon, i heard theres a imax movie about mummies playing til the end of may...gotta see that! and hopefully catch some nifty space stuff there too. why is it that when i had to take science classes in high school that i hated them, but now i wish i could go back and relive some of them? ahh growing old is weird.