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wow well i fucked up with tysan... we didnt break up but dude we were SO close and i dont kno if we are still or not he might suprise me and dump me but w/e. well this time i fucked up. he was talking to me bout how he doesnt think blake (one of my BESTEST friends in the world) respects him as my bf cuz blake hugs me a lot (duh we're like best friends) and i was mad at blake the other day and so he put his arm around me so i wouldnt be mad at him anymore and tysan i guess thought he didnt respect him as my bf. so then i was like "well hes my bestest guy friend and he shows that someones his friend through like hugging and stuff and he was jk and he didnt mean to make u mad" and then i ACCIDENTALLY said "cmon u kno i love u blake" when i meant tysan and OMG HE GOT SO FUCKING MAD! he didnt say a WORD to me for an hour so i was like beggin him for forgiveness for like an hour while he wasnt talking (he told someone he was crying but i dont think he was... i think he was makin me feel sorry even more than i am which isnt possible) and yea. then i was tryin to make him talk and i said "well i cant say anything more than sorry... how can u still be mad at me?" and he told me he was mad at me cuz i was #1 on blakes side/defending him (of course i was he's my best friend) #2 i call him blake WAY too much #3 i let blake "be all over me" #4 i accuse him of everything (omg ive only accused him of ONE friggin thing which was liking elizabeth and after he told me he never liked her in the first place i got over it) and #5 i dont trust him. wow i was so sad. and then he said there was another reason but he didnt wanna tell me so i was begging him and he kept whispering "give me a day... i need to talk to someone" and i asked who he was gonna talk to and he told me claire whos one of my bestest friends also and yea it sucked cuz he didnt wanna talk to me bout it but he wanted to talk to my bestest friend about it. well yea and so this went on for 3 days of him being mad and not talkin to me and so the other day finally we talked at school. i got kinda an attitude cuz he was makin me mad and he was like intimidated (omg he was SO ADORABLE!) and so it was like so hard to semi-yell at him so i told him to stand up (cuz he was sittin down) and he was like "umm... why what u gonna do" cuz i guess he thought i was gonna like push him or something so i was just like "I SAID STAND UP!" so he stood up with his cute adorable puppy-dog eyes and so i hugged him and it was soooo cute! we hugged for a really long time and i didnt wanna let go... well yea now he says he forgives me but hes still mad (if that makes sense) and yea we'll figure everything out soon. well im finally gettin closer with all my best friends (ana,claire,kail, and gabby) which is good. yea well i guess everythings okay... NEXT WEEK IS OUR LAST WEEK! good but really bad at the same time cuz its gonna be my last week at parkman with tysan... hes moving in september.. im gonna die... ill need ur support ppl. well i gotta go im gonna call kailey i think. well luv ya ppl and PLEASE COMMENT! u kno u want to. well okay bye bye!!!
Kizzies <3,
Sammay a.k.a Erni