fuck off.
i really enjoy how nobody has any form of emotion anymore. nobody=one person. How can you give everything you have to one person for so fucking long, and they turn around and say it didn't mean anything and stomp all over your heart. Hooray. Why wasn't this ended the first time we broke up, why was it dragged on for a year. it put me under the impression everything worked itself out and it was fine. there wasn't even a sign of this happening. everything was fucking fine, normal conversation. then there was a talk of a break, cause we spend too much time together. That talk didn't last for a second until the mention of ending this. Wtf. i would have taken the break, cause it makes sense. a full on break up..jdsUTRSorst. bleh. seriously, the longest we've gone without talking since this is 4 days. we always said before it was impossible for us to break up. Partly because i care so much and do anything to get back together. This time's different. I'm not calling him, and when he says bullshit he gets a punch in the face. haha. good drunk times. BLEH. But apparently we're still going through with our camping trip, it's in two weeks i believe. i'm confused :o( probably being used right now. but i hope the next two weeks of probably not talking to each other will help us work this shiznet out. i was watching a movie today and it said sometimes people hold on when they should just let go. it's hard to let go of the only person who's supported you and pushed you to be the best you can be. tried my best not to fall in love and it happened. it sucks. But yea, so now i'm drawing overtime trying to get a good portfolio and maybe start to write my own stuff on guitar. shall be a grand ol time. I need a kitten.