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i would like to quote bridgette jones' diary when i say "It's the truth universally acknowledged that the moment when one area of your life starts going okay, another part of it falls spectacularly to pieces."
the part of my life that is starting to suck (for lack of better words) is my mother's health. about last week she had to get a biopsy to see if the tissue that the doctor spotted was cancer or not. she got a call this morning that gave her the unsympathetic prognosis that said, "You have cancer." so now my mother has breast cancer. why can i not stop crying? well besides the fact that i had been living in her stomach for 9 months... i have been inadvertantly giving her the cold shoulder. keyword...inadvertantly. because i dont know what to do besides spend all of my free minutes with someone who loves me to no end. i've never had someone like that in my life before and spending all of my time with him is all that i know to do.
so now i feel like drinking myself into a coma, because like a normal human being i am assuming all the guilt. i'm really confused and don't know what to do. i've been so happy that i guess it's only right that something brutally depressing hits my life. i have a job that pays me well, a boyfriend who treats me like a princess, and a mother who has cancer. i'm speechless and therefore cannot type anymore.
the part of my life that is starting to suck (for lack of better words) is my mother's health. about last week she had to get a biopsy to see if the tissue that the doctor spotted was cancer or not. she got a call this morning that gave her the unsympathetic prognosis that said, "You have cancer." so now my mother has breast cancer. why can i not stop crying? well besides the fact that i had been living in her stomach for 9 months... i have been inadvertantly giving her the cold shoulder. keyword...inadvertantly. because i dont know what to do besides spend all of my free minutes with someone who loves me to no end. i've never had someone like that in my life before and spending all of my time with him is all that i know to do.
so now i feel like drinking myself into a coma, because like a normal human being i am assuming all the guilt. i'm really confused and don't know what to do. i've been so happy that i guess it's only right that something brutally depressing hits my life. i have a job that pays me well, a boyfriend who treats me like a princess, and a mother who has cancer. i'm speechless and therefore cannot type anymore.