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past few days been kinda rough. nothing fixes that better than sleeping with another man.
you know when you were a kid and the big kids would take something from you and hold it above you and you would jump for it, but they would pull it back, just out of reach?????/
thats kinda how I feel.
so close... is it pointless? do I look stupider evertime i jump? if I just reach out really fast...will I get it?
hahaha thats a stupid example.
I want a new phone. but I don't know which would be better.
free nights and weekends with Verison(used 'em before, really liked the service)
or roll over minutes (I could have so many extra mins with cingular, cuz I know I won't use a phone alot unless I had a girlfriend. )
but yea.
and... if I made a paypal donation link, would everyone pitch in and help me buy a car? cuz I would love you forever.
I went to goodner mountain tonight to listen to johnnie play guitar and stuff... but then no one was there... so I went home.
drove through limestone springs, cuz I've never seen it and it's suposedly the "nice" place to live in "oneonta" it's so ridiculus. I would never want to live there. it's not even in Oneonta, it's anexed. so I would feel weird saying I lived in oneonta.
I drove around for a while, I wanted to egg the houses and drive through their yards.
I wanted to do bad things, so I just drove about 25mph over the limit and didn't stop at stop signs. I honked my horn a few times. and I saw a deer. oh yea, and I went to the golf course.
I'm bored. I wish things didn't change. not yet at least.
I hope I get everything straightened out about school tomorrow.
I think I have class tomorrow, I don't even know. the website is down..
I'm just ready for this whole part of my life to be over. i want to go back 5 years. it sucked then too, but it wasn't so bad now that I think about it.