with baited breath....
these past few days have been such a blur of emotion and...just a blur of everything.
tamara was supposed to have a C section on December 8th.
this past friday (the 3rd) at around 7 30 pm i decide to listen to the messeges.
"Hey age, its jay. um its around noon right now on Friday, just came into the hospital for a routine checkup, and they've decided tamara needs to have the c section today at around 3. i cant keep my cell phone on, but i'll try coming out of the room and calling you every so often. bye."
so at this point i am in complete shock when i realize that obviously its past 3..and tamara has already had her baby. all the planning and exitement that i would be in the hospital with her while she's having it, or at least in the waiting room....im at home while her baby was born 4 hours ago. after a good cry i realize that she's probably really really busy with everyone there, and it will probably be a better visit if i go saturday to visit her, seeing as visiting hours at that hospital end at 8. (and by this time after the crying it was like 5 to 8:00).
so me mom and dad drive up to toronto saturday, and i get to spend a few hours with her and her absolutely beautiful baby girl Natalie Cynthia Quinn. her and the parents that are adopting natalie compromised on the name- they picked natalie, and she picked cynthia (after her mums name, since tamaras middle name is from her grandmother- she thought it'd be nice to carry on the tradition). apparantly the adopting parents Ralph and Edith are amazing people and already have one adopted son. howver i was a tad sketchy on them when i heard that their original plan for natalie's name was......and get ready for this....
DO RE ME. thats right. as in "Do, a deer, a female deer, RE a drop of golden sun.."
i kid you not. this is what they wanted the baby girls first name to be. WHO DOES THAT?! lol. so tamara and jay tried their VERY hardest to steer them away from this name without offending them....and thank goodness they were successful.
but anyways. she is absolutely gorgeous. she has tamara's eyes, and Jay's nose. and an adorable double chin hahaha.
anyways, that night i came back into Oshawa and straight to halz house for Alleys "surprise" party. lol it was a good time had by all, i met a lot of new people (for the first little bit, me and haley had our own little drinking corner, lol) but after a bit of being introduced, or introducing ourselves, we were soon all talking and.....playing spin the bottle. yes.....i said it. we were back into grade 6. lol
after everybody had left, i had decided it was time for me to pass out in haleys bed around 2:00am i think it was? anyways......bla bla bla...cody is a DOUCHEBAG bla bla bla.......and haley is going to kill him. lol actually i think her exact words were "I will shove my foot so far up his ass, he will be tasting leather for the rest of his natural life." haley, this is why i love you.
(PS- note to haley: 1)jon is planning on taking cody's life.
2)jon and my friend lauren is telling sebby, who is literally planning on
teaching Cody a lesson today. im excited.
(PS- note to heather: i missed you a lot at the party, i wish there were no driving nazis so that you could've come, we all missed you, and i'll explain the "bla bla bla" later.<3)
anyways, Sunday i went to church, then jon me and lauren went to Mcdonalds for hangover food for all of us......except me and lauren were extremely frightened....as jon didnt finish his big mac. for those of you who know jon especially you haley, will know how creepy this occurance is...lol he took about 2 bites out of it and left it..becuase he was too angry. i felt really bad.
then i came home, and spent some time sleeping, and attempting some homework, and some time on the phone with tamara, and reading some books to a little girl named Naomi, (her, her sister sarah and her mother are staying at our house for a while until they get back on their feet). so me sarah and naomi watched a bit of a movie together and i read them some books,
then i went to see Alexander, holy CRAP i didnt know it was going to be that long of a movie. anyways it was pretty good- i enjoyed it.
angelina jolie kicks some massive ass in her role. she's amazing.
anyways, here i am, monday morning, anxious as HELL because im going into toronto today again to see Natalie for the last time before her new parents take her home....and its snowing like crazy which make the roads bad, but im taking the Go which is ok. except for the fact that i just called tamara and she's been bawling her eyes out all night because natalie has been takin to the ICU. (intensive care unit).
she apparantly had some trouble breathing last night, so they're doing everything they can to fix it......im praying that shes going to be ok...tamara is already devastated...they havent told her/updated her on anything yet, and she's been waiting all night to see natalie again. i think this experience is going to make it a thousand times harder for tamara to give her up. but i guess we'll just have to wait and see.
im all antsy becuase i just want to get to toronto to see tamara, i hate knowing she's this upset and im this far away from her. BLARG.
i hope everyone had a lovely weekend though.......i'll update later and tell whats happening with Natalie.
Das vi dania.
tamara was supposed to have a C section on December 8th.
this past friday (the 3rd) at around 7 30 pm i decide to listen to the messeges.
"Hey age, its jay. um its around noon right now on Friday, just came into the hospital for a routine checkup, and they've decided tamara needs to have the c section today at around 3. i cant keep my cell phone on, but i'll try coming out of the room and calling you every so often. bye."
so at this point i am in complete shock when i realize that obviously its past 3..and tamara has already had her baby. all the planning and exitement that i would be in the hospital with her while she's having it, or at least in the waiting room....im at home while her baby was born 4 hours ago. after a good cry i realize that she's probably really really busy with everyone there, and it will probably be a better visit if i go saturday to visit her, seeing as visiting hours at that hospital end at 8. (and by this time after the crying it was like 5 to 8:00).
so me mom and dad drive up to toronto saturday, and i get to spend a few hours with her and her absolutely beautiful baby girl Natalie Cynthia Quinn. her and the parents that are adopting natalie compromised on the name- they picked natalie, and she picked cynthia (after her mums name, since tamaras middle name is from her grandmother- she thought it'd be nice to carry on the tradition). apparantly the adopting parents Ralph and Edith are amazing people and already have one adopted son. howver i was a tad sketchy on them when i heard that their original plan for natalie's name was......and get ready for this....
DO RE ME. thats right. as in "Do, a deer, a female deer, RE a drop of golden sun.."
i kid you not. this is what they wanted the baby girls first name to be. WHO DOES THAT?! lol. so tamara and jay tried their VERY hardest to steer them away from this name without offending them....and thank goodness they were successful.
but anyways. she is absolutely gorgeous. she has tamara's eyes, and Jay's nose. and an adorable double chin hahaha.
anyways, that night i came back into Oshawa and straight to halz house for Alleys "surprise" party. lol it was a good time had by all, i met a lot of new people (for the first little bit, me and haley had our own little drinking corner, lol) but after a bit of being introduced, or introducing ourselves, we were soon all talking and.....playing spin the bottle. yes.....i said it. we were back into grade 6. lol
after everybody had left, i had decided it was time for me to pass out in haleys bed around 2:00am i think it was? anyways......bla bla bla...cody is a DOUCHEBAG bla bla bla.......and haley is going to kill him. lol actually i think her exact words were "I will shove my foot so far up his ass, he will be tasting leather for the rest of his natural life." haley, this is why i love you.
(PS- note to haley: 1)jon is planning on taking cody's life.
2)jon and my friend lauren is telling sebby, who is literally planning on
teaching Cody a lesson today. im excited.
(PS- note to heather: i missed you a lot at the party, i wish there were no driving nazis so that you could've come, we all missed you, and i'll explain the "bla bla bla" later.<3)
anyways, Sunday i went to church, then jon me and lauren went to Mcdonalds for hangover food for all of us......except me and lauren were extremely frightened....as jon didnt finish his big mac. for those of you who know jon especially you haley, will know how creepy this occurance is...lol he took about 2 bites out of it and left it..becuase he was too angry. i felt really bad.
then i came home, and spent some time sleeping, and attempting some homework, and some time on the phone with tamara, and reading some books to a little girl named Naomi, (her, her sister sarah and her mother are staying at our house for a while until they get back on their feet). so me sarah and naomi watched a bit of a movie together and i read them some books,
then i went to see Alexander, holy CRAP i didnt know it was going to be that long of a movie. anyways it was pretty good- i enjoyed it.
angelina jolie kicks some massive ass in her role. she's amazing.
anyways, here i am, monday morning, anxious as HELL because im going into toronto today again to see Natalie for the last time before her new parents take her home....and its snowing like crazy which make the roads bad, but im taking the Go which is ok. except for the fact that i just called tamara and she's been bawling her eyes out all night because natalie has been takin to the ICU. (intensive care unit).
she apparantly had some trouble breathing last night, so they're doing everything they can to fix it......im praying that shes going to be ok...tamara is already devastated...they havent told her/updated her on anything yet, and she's been waiting all night to see natalie again. i think this experience is going to make it a thousand times harder for tamara to give her up. but i guess we'll just have to wait and see.
im all antsy becuase i just want to get to toronto to see tamara, i hate knowing she's this upset and im this far away from her. BLARG.
i hope everyone had a lovely weekend though.......i'll update later and tell whats happening with Natalie.
Das vi dania.