Ruths Birthday
What an eventful night which has resulted in what seems like Paul being extremely weird with me. I should have known. Its like we're Edie and Dylan in diary of a crush, meant for each other but stuck thinking about the reasons we shouldn't be together. Or maybe thats just what i wish. Had a good night at camel. Laura made me smile, telling me I was beautiful. But the one comment that really did make me smile was Paul telling me I was beautiful. he hasn't told me that in a long time and it really made my heart go.
For about an hour, me and paul were the only ones in camel club. or thats how it felt to me, it was like it was me and him, the way we used to be, kissing and in love. because we kissed for ages, and it felt so right. the whole world just melted away and I knew, I knew he's the one for me. he's the one I want to be with. I cried myself to sleep last night/this morning despite the tiredness of me. Because it just felt right, to be in his arms, to feel his hands caress my cheeks and for him to tease me with little butterfly kisses on my lips.
I felt like he knew it too, but then he pulled away.
I loved last night so much. I had fun, i danced and i drunk, i laughed and for the first time in a month and 3 days, i actually honestly smiled. and it was cause i was in his arms. I love him so much.
For about an hour, me and paul were the only ones in camel club. or thats how it felt to me, it was like it was me and him, the way we used to be, kissing and in love. because we kissed for ages, and it felt so right. the whole world just melted away and I knew, I knew he's the one for me. he's the one I want to be with. I cried myself to sleep last night/this morning despite the tiredness of me. Because it just felt right, to be in his arms, to feel his hands caress my cheeks and for him to tease me with little butterfly kisses on my lips.
I felt like he knew it too, but then he pulled away.
I loved last night so much. I had fun, i danced and i drunk, i laughed and for the first time in a month and 3 days, i actually honestly smiled. and it was cause i was in his arms. I love him so much.