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today this dude came to our school who was a one man vollyball team. it was preety cool and he won all the games he played. anyway what i wanted to write was what he said at the end. he was like saying how many teenagers commit suicide a year. then he was like "last year a kid came up to me and he had five razor blade marks down his arm and said last night i tried to kill myself" i was like fuck, i almost broke down. and this girl whos really nice was sitting across the bleachers from me, she was recenty hospitalized for two weeks for cutting. she almost cried or did, i love her she's so sweet to everyone. anyway, you could have cut them tension in that room with a fucking knife.then he was all people die drinking and driving blah blah blah. i hate hearing about that shit. im like my dad drinks like a fucking keg then drives us all home and around town and shit and im alive. now that i said that im gonna die next weekend, but yea. dammit, i hate this kinda shit. and i also realised i have a fear of men, not all, but most. i mean dont get me wrong guys of my own age are fine, but men scare me. i dont trust any of them. im always afraid their gonna like rape me or something, and i dont like being in a room with a guy alone, freaky ass shit. ::sigh:: im wicked hungry, i dont feel good. but i havnt eaten yet...yay? i mean is this something i should be proud of, i am but having been on both sides of an ed, i guess i can see how scary it is and what im doing. buuuuuut who gives a fuck? not me thats for sure...
kick ass song:
"Bleed Like Me"
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
P.S. sorry for my ranting, im just really stressed the fuck out right now. and i really need to stop swearing...gosh.
kick ass song:
"Bleed Like Me"
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
P.S. sorry for my ranting, im just really stressed the fuck out right now. and i really need to stop swearing...gosh.