im better now...
its taken me these past few days to really think about my life and all that. And i´ve realised my main problem. I seem to dwell too much on the bad and not appriciate the good. For instance i will be miserable for days on end because of a problem i can´t change, and forget about playing guitar or seeing my friends who really want to see me. I just get all stubborn and make it out to be the biggest problem in the world. It´s a bit pathetic really. When something bad comes along it isnt healthy to dwell on it, it just make you maintain that "feeling like shit" mode that you´ve got yourself into, and its very hard to get out of it. What i really need to do is embrace the bad with the good, and always appriciate what i still have going for me when i feel like crawling into a hole in the ground and not coming out.
So i´ve made a decision. To pick up the pieces of my life that have fallen and start making more of an effort with things. Set myself goals to keep me occupied. And whenever i feel like im bored i should be playing guitar, making music, if its what im good at i cant let it slip away. I need to start taking charge of my life and my future. I hate feeling lazy. I refuse to be that way anymore. Well enough about that for now anyway.
I played a gig last night with my icelandic friends arni and mummi. I played a song with their band and it went down pretty well. They´re moving back to iceland next week, i am not looking forward to that. Watching their band play last night made me happy and sad at the same time. I love their songs so much but i couldnt help feeling this overwhelming sense of meloncholy. It just felt weird thinking about that being the last time i will see them play. At least for a while anyway. They say they´re coming back to england in eight months to start the band up again. But eight months is a long time. Anything could happen in that time. Still i´ll be going to visit them for new years so hopefully my icelandic will be good enough to get by by then!
i wonder if anyone has actually read this.....
So i´ve made a decision. To pick up the pieces of my life that have fallen and start making more of an effort with things. Set myself goals to keep me occupied. And whenever i feel like im bored i should be playing guitar, making music, if its what im good at i cant let it slip away. I need to start taking charge of my life and my future. I hate feeling lazy. I refuse to be that way anymore. Well enough about that for now anyway.
I played a gig last night with my icelandic friends arni and mummi. I played a song with their band and it went down pretty well. They´re moving back to iceland next week, i am not looking forward to that. Watching their band play last night made me happy and sad at the same time. I love their songs so much but i couldnt help feeling this overwhelming sense of meloncholy. It just felt weird thinking about that being the last time i will see them play. At least for a while anyway. They say they´re coming back to england in eight months to start the band up again. But eight months is a long time. Anything could happen in that time. Still i´ll be going to visit them for new years so hopefully my icelandic will be good enough to get by by then!
i wonder if anyone has actually read this.....