"stream of consciousness"
jealousy is the worst emotion available.
when i'm rich (yes, i said 'when,' not 'if') i want to see the world. the natural world. the things on the show Planet Earth. some of the shit on that show is miraculous. things only a handful of people have ever seen. i want to be in that handful. witness something truly majestic. a snow leopard.
people aren't special. the only thing that separates human beings from animals is the ability to critically think.
mankind (or womankind?) is synonymous with narcissism. we think we are the lords of the earth. as a wise character played by the underrated actor jeff goldblum once said, "what you call discovery, i call the rape of the natural world."
what is the frontal lobe of a human's brain called? one time i heard that that is what gives humans the ability to think critically. basically, all we are are monkeys with a frontal lobe. every living thing came from the same descendant. providing you believe in evolution. (and if you don't you're a... moron?)
the world is such a beautiful place but society and mankind makes it hideous. rape.
in a purely social definition, the people who make the most money... i forgot what i was going to say actually. sorry.
if i were ever to get a tattoo, which is a possibility, i would get the word 'perspective' somewhere on my body. perspective is the most meaningful word in the English language. i would elaborate but i just lost my train of thought. maybe it'll come back to me...
everyone says… yes, I mean EVERYONE, says I’m a loser for drinking alone. I think that just makes me an alcoholic, not a loser. i'm right. don't argue. i'm also cold. temperature-wise.
perspective. you say something is good. i say it's bad. who's right? neither. good is a subjective term. but people use it objectively. cartoons. grant and i had a conversation about cartoons. what makes a cartoon show good? is the animation? the story? the characters? it all depends on your beliefs. and i don't mean beliefs in a religious way. music. it's kind of the same deal, although i think it's a little easier to differentiate between good and bad. but its really not. good could mean talented musicians. but good could also simply mean something you enjoy. "if i like it, it's good." which makes sense in a way. but there are many 'ways.' because, i mean, what makes something 'good?' totally subjective. language.
language.
(i miss this. staying up late. drinking by myself. projecting my thoughts into a communicative piece of writing.)
language. i hate when people get offended by words. like cunt. i could write an entire paper on the word cunt... but i won't. but my point is, how can someone let a WORD affect their mood? how cant someone let a combination of letters make them pissed off? its stupid. context is the ONLY thing that matters.
i need to pause for a few minutes because this song is amazing. sigur ros - samskeyti.
and then i just had a profound thought while i was urinating. well. I think it was profound... and now i forgot it. shit.
i'm just writing what i think. in the order i think it. no censoring, no editing. but this song is still on. so hold on.
i made a choice to not use proper grammar when i typed this note. i mean who cares? why should i capitalize my sentences? i just want to get my points across, and you'll get them, whether i use proper grammar or not.
this could be the most productive thing i've ever written. only because i most of these thoughts i have quite frequently, but i never articulate them. and now i am. who says alcohol is bad. fuck them.
i want to be a philosopher. are philosophers only well known decades after their death? i don't care. i just want to ponder life's mysteries. for a living. but i can't. because i have to make money. the most evil thing mankind has ever created. and yet, i have no better solution. we HAVE to have money. i have the same feeling towards the government. its corrupt, its manipulative, its evil. but what better way is there? maybe there is a better system, but i surely can't think of it.
there is a better version of everything. EVERYTHING. but the incredibly vast majority of people are incapable of conceiving it. which is what makes the few (and most likely rich) people inventors and innovators.
music.
dude... music.
to me, the epitome of artistic ability. but then again, perspective. its only my opinion. music though. music can invoke mood. music can bring back memories. music can make a grown man weep. but it can also make a weak person strong. it can manifest courage. music is powerful. why? how?
what makes one person like country music and another person like rock music? environment must play a role, in my opinion. but i think its something deeper. i think music relates to who you are. music. goddamn. what a beautiful thing. if i listen to one song, i'll feel like writing about one thing. if i listen to a different song, it will make me write about something different. it's a mystery. to me at least.
perspective. i have one thought about perspective that i think will make people think... and here it is: do you REALLY know what people think of you? you walk into a room, a party, and you're happy. you think things are good. have you ever considered the possibility that every person in the room is thinking, "goddamn, why is THAT mother fucker here? who invited THAT douche?" Maybe it's a product of my own insecurities, but i think a lot of people could relate to that thought. BECAUSE people are generally insecure.
sigur ros - samskeyti. download it if you're tired or drunk or high or whatever. its amazing.
technology. the end of the world. the point of life. the end of the world. have you ever thought about how fast the world is advancing? i shouldn't say 'world.' i should say mankind. the earth has been around for 4.5 BILLION years. and humans have occupied it for a few thousand of those years. and look at how far we've come. we're unlocking the mysteries of the universe. mathematical equations that explain nature. quantum physics. string theory. think of the technological advancements in your lifetime alone. and how long have you been alive in relation to the amount of time there's been life on earth? an infinitesimally small period. so much advancement, but for nothing. we will become extinct, just like every other dominant creature of their time. we are not above nature.
religion gives us the illusion that we are special. but we're not. we're products of evolutionary change, just like every other creature. we think that just because we have the ability to vaguely predict catastrophes that we can overcome natural selection? extinction? no. we cannot. one way or another, whether it's by a natural cause or our own ignorant actions, mankind will die out. and the next dominant race will achieve even greater accomplishments than we have.
this is getting pretty long. i bet know one even reads this sentence. i bet no one even gets to the 6th paragraph before this one. oh well i really don't give a shit.
i wish i read more. i love reading. i love learning. sometimes, even though it is the source of much entertainment, i wish that television had never been created. or that i lived in an earlier time period when there was no tv. it wastes so much of my time. i learn miniscule amounts and get bombarded with advertisements and other stupid bullshit. i could be reading. i could be perfecting a skill. but no. im watching the fuckin boob tube. ugh what an evil invention.
lets put a religious spin on it and say the devil created television. lol
the devil created abbreviations. hahahah
i guess i'll continue this another night, this 'stream of consciousness' (thank you lindsey) is getting a little fatigued.
badnight you cunts.
yeah, get offended... please.
when i'm rich (yes, i said 'when,' not 'if') i want to see the world. the natural world. the things on the show Planet Earth. some of the shit on that show is miraculous. things only a handful of people have ever seen. i want to be in that handful. witness something truly majestic. a snow leopard.
people aren't special. the only thing that separates human beings from animals is the ability to critically think.
mankind (or womankind?) is synonymous with narcissism. we think we are the lords of the earth. as a wise character played by the underrated actor jeff goldblum once said, "what you call discovery, i call the rape of the natural world."
what is the frontal lobe of a human's brain called? one time i heard that that is what gives humans the ability to think critically. basically, all we are are monkeys with a frontal lobe. every living thing came from the same descendant. providing you believe in evolution. (and if you don't you're a... moron?)
the world is such a beautiful place but society and mankind makes it hideous. rape.
in a purely social definition, the people who make the most money... i forgot what i was going to say actually. sorry.
if i were ever to get a tattoo, which is a possibility, i would get the word 'perspective' somewhere on my body. perspective is the most meaningful word in the English language. i would elaborate but i just lost my train of thought. maybe it'll come back to me...
everyone says… yes, I mean EVERYONE, says I’m a loser for drinking alone. I think that just makes me an alcoholic, not a loser. i'm right. don't argue. i'm also cold. temperature-wise.
perspective. you say something is good. i say it's bad. who's right? neither. good is a subjective term. but people use it objectively. cartoons. grant and i had a conversation about cartoons. what makes a cartoon show good? is the animation? the story? the characters? it all depends on your beliefs. and i don't mean beliefs in a religious way. music. it's kind of the same deal, although i think it's a little easier to differentiate between good and bad. but its really not. good could mean talented musicians. but good could also simply mean something you enjoy. "if i like it, it's good." which makes sense in a way. but there are many 'ways.' because, i mean, what makes something 'good?' totally subjective. language.
language.
(i miss this. staying up late. drinking by myself. projecting my thoughts into a communicative piece of writing.)
language. i hate when people get offended by words. like cunt. i could write an entire paper on the word cunt... but i won't. but my point is, how can someone let a WORD affect their mood? how cant someone let a combination of letters make them pissed off? its stupid. context is the ONLY thing that matters.
i need to pause for a few minutes because this song is amazing. sigur ros - samskeyti.
and then i just had a profound thought while i was urinating. well. I think it was profound... and now i forgot it. shit.
i'm just writing what i think. in the order i think it. no censoring, no editing. but this song is still on. so hold on.
i made a choice to not use proper grammar when i typed this note. i mean who cares? why should i capitalize my sentences? i just want to get my points across, and you'll get them, whether i use proper grammar or not.
this could be the most productive thing i've ever written. only because i most of these thoughts i have quite frequently, but i never articulate them. and now i am. who says alcohol is bad. fuck them.
i want to be a philosopher. are philosophers only well known decades after their death? i don't care. i just want to ponder life's mysteries. for a living. but i can't. because i have to make money. the most evil thing mankind has ever created. and yet, i have no better solution. we HAVE to have money. i have the same feeling towards the government. its corrupt, its manipulative, its evil. but what better way is there? maybe there is a better system, but i surely can't think of it.
there is a better version of everything. EVERYTHING. but the incredibly vast majority of people are incapable of conceiving it. which is what makes the few (and most likely rich) people inventors and innovators.
music.
dude... music.
to me, the epitome of artistic ability. but then again, perspective. its only my opinion. music though. music can invoke mood. music can bring back memories. music can make a grown man weep. but it can also make a weak person strong. it can manifest courage. music is powerful. why? how?
what makes one person like country music and another person like rock music? environment must play a role, in my opinion. but i think its something deeper. i think music relates to who you are. music. goddamn. what a beautiful thing. if i listen to one song, i'll feel like writing about one thing. if i listen to a different song, it will make me write about something different. it's a mystery. to me at least.
perspective. i have one thought about perspective that i think will make people think... and here it is: do you REALLY know what people think of you? you walk into a room, a party, and you're happy. you think things are good. have you ever considered the possibility that every person in the room is thinking, "goddamn, why is THAT mother fucker here? who invited THAT douche?" Maybe it's a product of my own insecurities, but i think a lot of people could relate to that thought. BECAUSE people are generally insecure.
sigur ros - samskeyti. download it if you're tired or drunk or high or whatever. its amazing.
technology. the end of the world. the point of life. the end of the world. have you ever thought about how fast the world is advancing? i shouldn't say 'world.' i should say mankind. the earth has been around for 4.5 BILLION years. and humans have occupied it for a few thousand of those years. and look at how far we've come. we're unlocking the mysteries of the universe. mathematical equations that explain nature. quantum physics. string theory. think of the technological advancements in your lifetime alone. and how long have you been alive in relation to the amount of time there's been life on earth? an infinitesimally small period. so much advancement, but for nothing. we will become extinct, just like every other dominant creature of their time. we are not above nature.
religion gives us the illusion that we are special. but we're not. we're products of evolutionary change, just like every other creature. we think that just because we have the ability to vaguely predict catastrophes that we can overcome natural selection? extinction? no. we cannot. one way or another, whether it's by a natural cause or our own ignorant actions, mankind will die out. and the next dominant race will achieve even greater accomplishments than we have.
this is getting pretty long. i bet know one even reads this sentence. i bet no one even gets to the 6th paragraph before this one. oh well i really don't give a shit.
i wish i read more. i love reading. i love learning. sometimes, even though it is the source of much entertainment, i wish that television had never been created. or that i lived in an earlier time period when there was no tv. it wastes so much of my time. i learn miniscule amounts and get bombarded with advertisements and other stupid bullshit. i could be reading. i could be perfecting a skill. but no. im watching the fuckin boob tube. ugh what an evil invention.
lets put a religious spin on it and say the devil created television. lol
the devil created abbreviations. hahahah
i guess i'll continue this another night, this 'stream of consciousness' (thank you lindsey) is getting a little fatigued.
badnight you cunts.
yeah, get offended... please.