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sooo
they need to do more tests on ken.
which obviously worries me. i hope he's ok.
seriously
this is sucky.
why dont they know
they're doctors.
it's their JOB to know
/scared
still confused but trying to fight it
not working so well.
i will fight till i break.
and then. well im broken. so that sucks.
hopefully it fixes.
/sigh.
/hateslife.
mandee & i drunk ourselves silly, and well, me sick. very sick
i puked up my stomach acid.
that's hot.
no more drinky for a while. i dont even think it helped haha.
mandee is more ok than i thought she'd be, what with. the whole sitch.
i'm proud of her. she's my penguin, and she's strong, and i'm here for her if she needs someone to lean on
in the meantime, we need to get her laid. haha.
i need to see bri.
shes friggin so not ok. and thats not cool.
/sigh.
and they changed their number i think. cuz i tried to call and it was like. no can do.
and nika said they got a new #. so i cant even get a hold of her.
/scaredforhertoo.
ahh so many things going on
everythings fucked. and its making me not be able to focus on me, which is how i LIKE It because id rather focus on other people, but its not helping my confusion or anything.
make. it. stop.
on a lighter note,
vancouver was really fun.
and it was good for us i think.
and i got to meet trinerbeaners. which was rad to the maxx. we took lots of silly pictures.
make her come live here.
shes so fun. letear.
ken & i did lots of fun stuff. and saw a seagull eating a starfish. and took lots of pics together.
it was refreshing.
the hotel was sooo nice. i wish. keep it forever?
i stole a facecloth for the memory.
ha. im random.
i really want a flaxseed bread grilled cheese samich.
like, really bad.
that's my story.
my heart hurts for everyone & myself.
ohgod im so emo.
that's all for me for today.
<3.
they need to do more tests on ken.
which obviously worries me. i hope he's ok.
seriously
this is sucky.
why dont they know
they're doctors.
it's their JOB to know
/scared
still confused but trying to fight it
not working so well.
i will fight till i break.
and then. well im broken. so that sucks.
hopefully it fixes.
/sigh.
/hateslife.
mandee & i drunk ourselves silly, and well, me sick. very sick
i puked up my stomach acid.
that's hot.
no more drinky for a while. i dont even think it helped haha.
mandee is more ok than i thought she'd be, what with. the whole sitch.
i'm proud of her. she's my penguin, and she's strong, and i'm here for her if she needs someone to lean on
in the meantime, we need to get her laid. haha.
i need to see bri.
shes friggin so not ok. and thats not cool.
/sigh.
and they changed their number i think. cuz i tried to call and it was like. no can do.
and nika said they got a new #. so i cant even get a hold of her.
/scaredforhertoo.
ahh so many things going on
everythings fucked. and its making me not be able to focus on me, which is how i LIKE It because id rather focus on other people, but its not helping my confusion or anything.
make. it. stop.
on a lighter note,
vancouver was really fun.
and it was good for us i think.
and i got to meet trinerbeaners. which was rad to the maxx. we took lots of silly pictures.
make her come live here.
shes so fun. letear.
ken & i did lots of fun stuff. and saw a seagull eating a starfish. and took lots of pics together.
it was refreshing.
the hotel was sooo nice. i wish. keep it forever?
i stole a facecloth for the memory.
ha. im random.
i really want a flaxseed bread grilled cheese samich.
like, really bad.
that's my story.
my heart hurts for everyone & myself.
ohgod im so emo.
that's all for me for today.
<3.