Graduating

Jun 12, 2010 16:51

I'm pretty sure no one reads this, but oh well. I'm graduating tomorrow. Took damn long enough.

See, I say that, but I'm not really sure. It all turned into a blur that seems like it only took a few weeks to go by. It's a very strange idea. It's fascinating to see how I've changed and how everyone else has changed, or stayed the exact same.  I've been stuck with the same people for the past twelve years and now that's finally going away. Unfortunately, more than few of 'em are going to RIC, so they're not all gone.

I started out in kindergarten, friends with Catie Moniz and Jon Sheppard. Then there was ALP for 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grade; I was friends with Alex Breen and Catie Moniz. I still talk to Alex on occasion, but that will probably end now that school is over. Catie tries to talk to me. I can't say I'll be too sad about never hearing from her again. For some reason, though, I was friends with her throughout 4th and 5th grade, too. Everyone was friends at that point, though, so I don't know how much it counts. I had my first super mega crush, on David Dion. He has a kid now. Damn glad I got my crush on him over in 5th grade hah.

Then came Middle School. That's what pretty much changed me completely and made me who I am now, despite me currently hating who I was then.  I started off in Silver Cluster, which is how I met Julia Moses. We were both totally hardcore and shopped at Hot Topic and listened to "punk." She was my best friend until around Freshman year. Then something happened, I could not even tell you what, and we haven't really talked since then. I used to practically live at this girl's house, we were inseparable. I texted her a few days ago and honestly didn't except a reply. I sincerely do wish I could chill with her / at least talk again, but I've learned to be a little realistic. We were there for each other throughout probably one of the hardest chunks of our lives and I guess once we didn't need each other around like that anymore, we just kinda moved on. It's sad, really. We still got along well whenever we did see each other (like in study for a while), but it was pretty obvious that she had no real interest in fixing our old friendship. Oh well.

At the end of Middle School, also, I met AFA. I was amazed. They were the coolest kids I had ever seen. I thought half of 'em were hot, especially Cam Mancini. I saw his picture on the Sonic Enema website; he was "Kam" on there. I was dating Jesse Blasbalg at the time, but after talking to Cam once online, I quickly dumped Jesse. That started a nearly three year long relationship. We started out totally amazing. We got along like no one could understand and we were more in love than anyone seemed to want to believe. There was a lot of drama because of this. AFA didn't like us being together; we got the nickname Cabulba Mancinifingers, a mix of my nickname, Sebulba Stickyfingers, and his name. This is kinda when Julia and I started not being friends. She sided with AFA; I didn't. I thought they were douchebags. Funny how quickly that changes. I went from wanting to be friends with all of them and wanting to spend every friday afternoon with them to... I don't even know. I remember Julia saying once how great it was to have something to look forward to every friday. Maybe that was part of it.

My relationship with Cam was amazing at first; we thought we would be together forever. We had plans to move to Canada and to have kids and all that stuff. He bought me a really nice ring, which I still have and wear today. I don't know if I've ever been as happy as I was at the beginning of our relationship. We both had similar interests and got along almost all the time. Then Cam became obsessed with straight edge and my entire life had to change because of it.

I had been hanging out with Mike Rod and everyone around the end of my relationship with Cam. I had begun smoking weed, not even a lot at the time. The end of our relationship was really about drugs. He didn't want me smoking. Now he's dating a stoner. Yeah, this bugs me. The exact reason we broke up? He saw me on 4/20 with Rod and people and refused to give me a hug because he assumed I was high. Not cool.

So we broke up. I started spending all of my time with Mike Rod, Angel Diorio, Matt Daddona, Mike Lacharite, and a few other people. Linnea Totushek and I were still friends at this point. I got to party every day with them. It was awesome. My parents hated that I hung out with them. They were "bad influences." I was convinced I was in love with Mike Rod, despite him being a total asshole. He told me a bunch of lies that I believed. I ended up banging him and then he ended up getting arrested, so that ended there. He hates me now, because he blames me for getting arrested. I gave him weed for his birthday and brought that and my bowl with us. We were supposed to go to his house. He decided to park in Haines Park and practically wait for the cops.

Somewhere around this time was the Devon Lavoie thing, too. We were wicked good friends and talked on Skype all the time. I had a crush on him since Freshman Orientation when I first saw him, so I jumped at the opportunity to even talk to him. He ended up being kinda a douche sometimes, and he claimed to have serious issues with relationships cuz of his ex. Ended up banging him, too. Then we stopped talking. Recently, though, I've started talking to him a bit more. Unfortunately, that probably won't last now that school's over. He's actually a really cool kid if you ignore his self-centered-ness.

After going through just about everyone I could, I ended up with Matt Daddona. He was nice and somehow convinced me, after the three years of him pursuing me. Basically ended up with a bottle of Bacardi, got wicked drunk, been dating since then for the most part. We have our drama. It sucks. Open relationship now. Still, things are weird.

I can't say I feel like I learned a lot academically throughout the years, but if you looked at my writing or other skills I probably have. I definitely learned about people though. Most of them suck. That's one lesson Barrington High School definitely makes clear.

I can't believe it's over, but I'm so happy it is. I have some decent memories of the high school, but I definitely won't miss it. Those memories are good enough, but they're over and I'm glad I can't make any more there.

"All I'm saying is that if I ever start referring to these as the best years of my life - remind me to kill myself. " - Pink from Dazed and Confused.
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