Wow..
ya so its safe to say its been a while huh?
Okay so last Friday i got off grounded...finally!The last month was So Far the worst month of my life....uhh but the past week has been better...i've just been thinking alot,and i've come to realize alot,and understand more. I've Grown to accept that i'm not going back to how i used to be...i don't know if its noticeable to anyone but it is to me..i don't feel the same inside anymore...some of its good and some of its bad...the good part is, that i've calmed down alot and i'm not scared to be who i really am anymore...The sorta downside of it is..is that i'm alot more catious...and i dotn' like to be that way..but i can't help it..I Think twice before doing anything now..and i hate it...i Love living in the heat of the moment...but i learned that sometimes it can come back and bite you in the ass.My Parents keep telling me that they hope i dont' make another big mistake like that again.but what they don't understand is that it wasn't a mistake,and it never will be.It was a great learning experience,i learned Alot of things from him.Not all of them good,but thats why i've come to be so cautious and not to jump into things right away..He taught me how to forgive,and to be who i really am.ya it was Hard for me the past month,Trying to let him go..After we went through so much.But i realized that Hes moved on,and that hes happy...and thats all i want.ya i'll always love him in some sort of way...But i'm very content on being friends.
Thanks SO much to everyone whos been there for me the past month...i dont' know what i'd do without friends like you.
That felt good to get all of that out...
O ya..i made the volleyball team...its pretty awesome. Connor's in California for 4 months..if not longer... :/
Ok well i'm Sick as fuck so i'm gonna go...
Call the house if u want too
247-1836
<3 me
Okay so last Friday i got off grounded...finally!The last month was So Far the worst month of my life....uhh but the past week has been better...i've just been thinking alot,and i've come to realize alot,and understand more. I've Grown to accept that i'm not going back to how i used to be...i don't know if its noticeable to anyone but it is to me..i don't feel the same inside anymore...some of its good and some of its bad...the good part is, that i've calmed down alot and i'm not scared to be who i really am anymore...The sorta downside of it is..is that i'm alot more catious...and i dotn' like to be that way..but i can't help it..I Think twice before doing anything now..and i hate it...i Love living in the heat of the moment...but i learned that sometimes it can come back and bite you in the ass.My Parents keep telling me that they hope i dont' make another big mistake like that again.but what they don't understand is that it wasn't a mistake,and it never will be.It was a great learning experience,i learned Alot of things from him.Not all of them good,but thats why i've come to be so cautious and not to jump into things right away..He taught me how to forgive,and to be who i really am.ya it was Hard for me the past month,Trying to let him go..After we went through so much.But i realized that Hes moved on,and that hes happy...and thats all i want.ya i'll always love him in some sort of way...But i'm very content on being friends.
Thanks SO much to everyone whos been there for me the past month...i dont' know what i'd do without friends like you.
That felt good to get all of that out...
O ya..i made the volleyball team...its pretty awesome. Connor's in California for 4 months..if not longer... :/
Ok well i'm Sick as fuck so i'm gonna go...
Call the house if u want too
247-1836
<3 me