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Ok... so i decided that i needed to type a quick entry before going to bed because i have millions and millions of thoughts running through my head... gahh
Ok so today was alot of fun... school sucked... but i came home and i did absolutely nothing which is always nice. Then i went tanning and headed over to Shawn's... we didnt really do that much we like just sat around and watched tv and such... and he was really sweet the whole time... and its days like today that i love him sooo much and understand why i am with him...
He tends to ruin it after that... but oh well...
BUT...
this gets more complicated cuz... when you have a boyfriend that you care dearly about you shouldnt have crushes right? well i do... actually more then one lol... i know i know i am a whore... but i feel terrible for having crushes... sooo then to justify my actions i am able to point out allll the terrible things that have happened with shawn's and my relationship... and then that ruins nights like tonight... so then what do i do?!
OK
*~So there is Shawn... Love him but often fight with him and get annoyed... but he means so much to me...
*~Then there is "he who shall not be named 1" which i have had a crush on for a while...but i think its more a sexual attraction that i have more then anything... and it would never happen anyways...but he called me beautiful the other night and i blushed...
*~Then there is "he who shall not be named 2" which i dont think i like anymore but then again he is sooo sweet to me and says he sweetest things to me i mean i have never had a guy say "No seriously Millie you have the prettiest eyes and a gorgeous personality. I really like you."< as he kisses my hand!... he is probably just trying to get into my pants.. but whatever...
*~So on to "he who shall not be named 3" yea i just aquired this crush like out of nowhere... lets just say he is super sweet =) lol
ohhh and duh... i am getting married to Mac lol =P
I am a whore... right? yea i thought so... =(
Should i just break up with shawn?... i mean our relationship as amanda puts it is "unhealthy" but what am i supposed to do just break up with him?? it doesnt really work that way... we have been together for almost 20 months... thats along time... and i still care about him alot... but then again i am not happy about where our relationship is going... idk... relationships are confusing...
Alright then there is this next topic... i promised Touhey that i would get some info about some of the houses my parents rent out... and now i want one of them lol i guess i should just pray they dont pick that one... lol But there are others that arent for rent yet and will be by the time i want to move out.. so i guess i am not going to sweat it...
Ok so i guess i am going to sell my car? My parents are making me in a month or two sell my car and buy another one by taking out a loan from the bank. Getting the car and my name and paying it off and start building up my credit.. i think its a desent idea... i better find a super sweet car tho... this time i get to pick it out! finally lol
But yea i am extremely tired now i think i am going to head to bed
sorry about the rambling...
Love to all...<3
Ok so today was alot of fun... school sucked... but i came home and i did absolutely nothing which is always nice. Then i went tanning and headed over to Shawn's... we didnt really do that much we like just sat around and watched tv and such... and he was really sweet the whole time... and its days like today that i love him sooo much and understand why i am with him...
He tends to ruin it after that... but oh well...
BUT...
this gets more complicated cuz... when you have a boyfriend that you care dearly about you shouldnt have crushes right? well i do... actually more then one lol... i know i know i am a whore... but i feel terrible for having crushes... sooo then to justify my actions i am able to point out allll the terrible things that have happened with shawn's and my relationship... and then that ruins nights like tonight... so then what do i do?!
OK
*~So there is Shawn... Love him but often fight with him and get annoyed... but he means so much to me...
*~Then there is "he who shall not be named 1" which i have had a crush on for a while...but i think its more a sexual attraction that i have more then anything... and it would never happen anyways...but he called me beautiful the other night and i blushed...
*~Then there is "he who shall not be named 2" which i dont think i like anymore but then again he is sooo sweet to me and says he sweetest things to me i mean i have never had a guy say "No seriously Millie you have the prettiest eyes and a gorgeous personality. I really like you."< as he kisses my hand!... he is probably just trying to get into my pants.. but whatever...
*~So on to "he who shall not be named 3" yea i just aquired this crush like out of nowhere... lets just say he is super sweet =) lol
ohhh and duh... i am getting married to Mac lol =P
I am a whore... right? yea i thought so... =(
Should i just break up with shawn?... i mean our relationship as amanda puts it is "unhealthy" but what am i supposed to do just break up with him?? it doesnt really work that way... we have been together for almost 20 months... thats along time... and i still care about him alot... but then again i am not happy about where our relationship is going... idk... relationships are confusing...
Alright then there is this next topic... i promised Touhey that i would get some info about some of the houses my parents rent out... and now i want one of them lol i guess i should just pray they dont pick that one... lol But there are others that arent for rent yet and will be by the time i want to move out.. so i guess i am not going to sweat it...
Ok so i guess i am going to sell my car? My parents are making me in a month or two sell my car and buy another one by taking out a loan from the bank. Getting the car and my name and paying it off and start building up my credit.. i think its a desent idea... i better find a super sweet car tho... this time i get to pick it out! finally lol
But yea i am extremely tired now i think i am going to head to bed
sorry about the rambling...
Love to all...<3