I dont really know what this entry is about
Sometimes I feel so strongly My entire outlook on life is altered.
I have depression and I hate it. Sometimes I want to die. Sometimes I want to kill people. Sometimes I cry because I dont want to do anything. For awhile I thought my friend would never tell me that important message...But she told me If she didnt tell me I wouldve been in a whole lot of shit right now and depressed as ever. I'm only happy sometimes...thats when im around my friends and when i feel comfortable or when i am talking/around someone. I get real happy when i see some people and real mad when i see others.
At the end of 3a i have this fire building up inside of me burning and burning for 3b waiting to see the person i would love to mutilate. I'd rip this person apart whether they know it or not. Its crazy how this feeling overcomes all other traits of me. I cant be nice...I am always so hot im sweating...I feel like I have something fiery in my throat that i have to swallow....Then I start fiending for a cigarette something to easy my mind...something to keep my hands at constant motion something to mke my mind feel good
but i never smoke in school so i let it fade away