NOT better to have loved and lost...i would have reather never felt it
Deffinatley been to long since ive even been on this site. Insane how you can be so into one thing one mintue and then the next minute youve found something new. ha same goes for people tho. as for me at this point in time, i am done with dating. i am done with feelings and love and relationships. i am so tired thinking that ive found something good, and then you know...its gone just liek that... << HE'S GONE JUST LIKE THAT. >> but you know what, im over it. (_hahaha what a lie_) I DONT KNOW!!! but yea, im on ohio, the middle of now where. IM DYING!!! hahaha how great. i wanmna creat a new live journal cuz im tired of the name on this one. but then i loose my background (if its even still there lmao) and i love my beackground. hmmph-a-lump. Well i love late night phone convorsations with michelle!!! ah how i miss her so much. last nigth we tryed to call kevin (how come i think i spelt tryed wrong lol) but there was no answer on his telephone. SOO we called skyler, how wonderfull. havent talked to him in soo long. ah how i miss the good ol days when things were actaully good. but ya know, i was dumb and gave em up. blahhhh poo on me. ah speaking on "poo"...my littel cousinsa (all boys 4,2,1) were over yesterday and were all swimming, so my bother picks up the 2 year old to take him outta the pool and swings him ove the 4 yr olds head, qwwat happens.....the 2 years old had taken a shit and poop and dirty brown water went all over the poo 4 yr old. oh man so sad....yet soooo funny. i was definatley "LOL" and "LMAO" heehee. you now, i have realized that the quote "ist better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all".....yea fuck that its bullshit. i wish i never loved, cuz all uit does is bring pain and heart ache. i get a kick out of how someone can tell you "ohh i love you so much and i always will." "we cant be together but things that 'cant' happen do all the time" and the best one "I PICTURE MYSELF SPENDING THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU" ahh how dumb i am to fall for the lies...espically the "i love you" lie. ahh i feel like an idiot. its hard. i wish i knew how to tell wether or not something im getting into is good or bad. wethere or not its worth my time. wethere or not im gonna get crushed and hurt and yes.....ranting and raving. how joyuos riiight?!? well i just like....well dont wanna say "wasted" but in that sense i just ________'d about 6-7 months. piece out. i will update again soon OXXXxxxXXXO